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blackkitykat
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   Posted 10/22/2011 2:24 AM (GMT -6)   
So im a 16 year old female. I normally dont tell people about my past due to the sympathy i receive... I dont like to be treated like i am weak or fragile. Every time i have come down with depression over the past two years i have managed to beat it, even though it may have been only due to me being put into hospital. I have experienced every type of abuse possible and have tried my best to simply think of it as a dark cloud over a part of my life. I just don't know what to do anymore. Im getting sick again and have now been diagnosed with post traumatic stress disorder. I just want to be able to move on with my life, but it is beginning to feel like my depression is starting to rule my life. Any ideas?

It's Genetic
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   Posted 10/22/2011 4:45 AM (GMT -6)   
Hello, Blackkitykat, and welcome to the Depression Forum,

I'm sorry you're having problems with post traumatic stress disorder
and with depression.

Did you ever get a diagnosis for what was wrong when you were placed in the hospital? Did you experience physical abuse at that time or were you hospitalized for emotional abuse or depression resulting from the abuse?

Under any circumstances, you are doing the right thing by planning treatment for post traumatic stress disorder. Your psychiatrist will probably recommend that you take medication for a while until he
feels that you have overcome the memories of any stress.

There are things you might also do in your diet to help your feeling tone. Do not use alcohol; it makes depression worse, and do not eat
or drink anything that has caffeine in it; it makes depression worse
also. The use of tea is not good, since it can contain either caffeine or theophylline, and chocolate is likely to cause difficulty for you, as well.
These things really do affect how you feel during the day following ingestion of them, so I would strongly encourage you to put them aside.
That means giving up sodas that contain caffeine, coffee, tea, chocolate, and anything else that you know makes you feel bad. Diet
plays a very big role in overcoming depressed moods.

Avoid sugar because it creates highs and lows. Try to use whole wheat rather that white flour products.

Get your rest and take your medications. These are all things that have been recommended by my specialist to follow to improve feeling tone.

For me personally, I cannot use the artificial sweeteners. They create terrible feeling tone about three hours after ingestion, and I have to
just drink water for an hour or so to relieve the symptoms. Others
have different sensitivities that bother them.

You could purchase a manual on cognative behavioral therapy which may help you counteract the negative thinking by turning it into positive thinking. Some find that very helpful. You can use meditation, which I do, and find it wonderfully helpful. Several on the forum use
journaling--writing their thoughts on paper--it seems to give them a
clearer picture of their moods and relieves the low feeling tone.

Hope you get along well and feel better soon.

It's Genetic

Post Edited (It's Genetic) : 10/22/2011 4:48:54 AM (GMT-6)


blackkitykat
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   Posted 10/22/2011 5:00 AM (GMT -6)   
Thankyou for the information It's Genetic.

I was hospitalised this year as a result of emotional/psychological and sexual abuse. The post traumatic stress is a result of being physically abused which resulted in my needing hospitalisation in order to stitch me up and get an X-ray which showed I had broken bones. Due to doctors not wishing to diagnose under 18s with depression, my final diagnosis was an adjustment disorder with suicidal tendencies, although other doctors have diagnosed it to be depression.

bayoub2
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   Posted 10/22/2011 5:13 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi welcome to the forum
I haven't had my coffee yet so I'll be brief.
 
I amsorry for all the adults who betrayed you. Try to remember that scars tell us where we have been, not who we are.
 
I would like you tosee a counselor right away.I have ptsd and the more italked about it w/ him, the lesser the burden and the movie playing over and over. There are meds that will lessen symotoms. Do not give up until you'vr tried it all. You are God's child and a precious gift-don't ever forget that
 
Maggie

blackkitykat
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   Posted 10/22/2011 5:27 AM (GMT -6)   
Thankyou bayoub2

I try to keep my past separate from my present so much and now the PTSD has caused me to be off school for a month due to severe muscle tension.
The main reason I am writing on here is because my only family member who hasn't abused me is going to have life-changing surgery soon and I would hate for her to have the burden of me being unwell ruin that for her.
Although I am currently self-harming and suicidal, I need to wait the 3 weeks. This is her time and I would hate myself more if I ruined that.
I am planning regular sessions with a psychiatrist in order to keep me well enough to make it the three weeks but am currently even considering talking to a doctor about hospitalising myself if I get too bad.

The hard part is I need to be around when she is in hospital to help around the house and I can't do that if I am in hospital myself. I figure I will just have to battle through one day at a time.

bayoub2
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   Posted 10/22/2011 5:40 AM (GMT -6)   
We are not allowed to talk about self-harm here but I'm glad you told me. It is imperstive that youse someon Monday...if that doesn't work out please call a helpline-talking to a caring stranger can be such a relief, especially since you cannot talk to family.

I hope you stay w/ the good relative and graduate soon? Could you call Child Services? Foster system sucks but at least they are not abusing you...somebody needs to answer for this big time and when you get out of there , I want you to run as far from that neighborhood/town as you can. Your family is highly toxic and thwis will not change.

Please do not hurt yourself...get on a helpline right away
With care
Maggie

bayoub2
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   Posted 10/22/2011 5:43 AM (GMT -6)   
Look at the top of forums page for depression and you'll see a thread called depression resources, click on it and alittle ways down you will see a link about selfinjury-check it out -today!!

getting by
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   Posted 10/22/2011 8:06 AM (GMT -6)   
Here is that site, but you might find even more in depression resources that could help you.
 
 
I hope that things work out for you and your kind relative that helps you.
 
Hugs, Karen

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fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies

bayoub2
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   Posted 10/22/2011 11:01 AM (GMT -6)   
Please let us know how you are doing?

Maggie

blackkitykat
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   Posted 10/22/2011 7:01 PM (GMT -6)   
Thankyou so much everyone for your support. I have had a look at the information you recommended and also have had a look through some of the sheets which i got given the last time i was in hospital.

I will keep you all up to date with my progress.

My main focus at the moment is to keep myself relatively well and to hide as much of what is going on as possible, until i can get to see my psychologists.

I really appreciate all the support i have received. Especially since none of it has made me feel weak or inadequate. Thank you all.

Alicia

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   Posted 10/22/2011 8:32 PM (GMT -6)   
If things go down hill for you please seek out help with the suicide hotlines...
we are rooting for you and know you are a good strong person, but please
if things do get bad call the hotline...and seek out counseling as soon as you can...
You can get thru this with good help...we do care about you so keep us posted.
Many well wishes being sent to you and remember you are a good person...
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