i cant tell if its depression or not...i dont know what kind but im pretty sure its some type of depression. sometimes it will be more painful and sad and other times its not as bad but im almost never happy. it gets to the point where i forget what happiness is like and sometimes i stop believing in happiness...and whenever i AM happy it takes less that a day for the super deep sadness to come back! it keeps coming back! sometimes there are reasons causing the sadness and sometimes its for no reason at all. so the questions are:
1. is this depression? and if so what type?
2. how do i get rid of this pain?