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CathyS.
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   Posted 10/23/2011 12:45 PM (GMT -6)   
When I was a young one, I was used sexually by countless of boys. My mother rejected who I was, my father had left us for alcohol, and my older sister didn't care much for me. I grew being rejected and used. Now, I'm in a relationship with someone that I love so much but can't make them happy because I can't be happy. I don't, it's just something in my brain keeps looking to recreate my past trauma. He has hurt me aswell and I hurt him back. I try to start over but I can't and now all I do is make him suffer when all he wants to do is move on and be happy. I want that too but I can't for some reason. Please help, I have a seriously screwed up brain.

bayoub2
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   Posted 10/23/2011 1:55 PM (GMT -6)   
You have been betrayed by those who are supposed to protect you. You don't feel deserving of love.

You need to get in touch with a counselor right away, and they can refer youto doctor. You are probably depressed and may even have ptsd

get some help and let us know
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   Posted 10/23/2011 3:29 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi there,

When we are treated badly like that, we feel badly for so long that we don't know how to accept love and kindness. Being happy is unfamiliar to us. Therefore we often continue to live a life of turmoil and unhappiness because that is all that we know. I agree with Maggie. Get counseling as soon as you can. You deserve to feel good and be happy. A counselor can help you with that.

Oh, and welcome to the forum Kathy. I amost forgot. Do keep posting. We might be able to help you sort some things out. But a professional counselor could help you much better.

Work on you and then work on the relationship. Keep your mental health top priority.

Hugs, Karen
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CathyS.
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   Posted 11/2/2011 2:42 PM (GMT -6)   
It's really ****ing up my relationship. I mean I keep making him want to leave me and I want help. I need it pleas someone

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   Posted 11/2/2011 3:41 PM (GMT -6)   
What is it that you are doing to mess up your relationship? Let me know. It may not be you. But we need more info before we can help you.

I am sorry that things are tough right now. I hope that they get better for you.

Hugs, Karen
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