When we are treated badly like that, we feel badly for so long that we don't know how to accept love and kindness. Being happy is unfamiliar to us. Therefore we often continue to live a life of turmoil and unhappiness because that is all that we know. I agree with Maggie. Get counseling as soon as you can. You deserve to feel good and be happy. A counselor can help you with that.
Oh, and welcome to the forum Kathy. I amost forgot. Do keep posting. We might be able to help you sort some things out. But a professional counselor could help you much better.
Work on you and then work on the relationship. Keep your mental health top priority.
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