I know now that I have been fighting depression my entire life. I even remember getting like this when I was a child. I know that it comes and goes and I have to literally fight back the sadness and anxiety that I start feeling, sometimes for no good reason. If something bad happens or I face some kind of setback, I have to fight really hard to not let it overtake me.
But I'm so tired of this fight. I don't want to be on antidepressants for the rest of my life and I cannot afford therapy right now. Money problems in one of the things causing me anxiety. I've been on antidepressants in the past and I don't like how they make me feel after a while.
Is there anything else I can do? I excierise and take vitiamins and try to stay busy. I feel like I can't talk to people in my life about this because no one would understand. Plus, I've gotten really good at pretending like I'm fine and putting on a "happy face." I'm sure people would be surprised or wouldn't believe me if they knew how I really felt.
Does anyone know of any free services around Cincinnati/Northern Kentucy area???? I just feel like I need to do something because I know I am missing out on life.