so much pain its hard

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   Posted 10/28/2011 2:24 PM (GMT -6)   
Hello im feelin in so much pain on the inside its so hard to hide to just get through the mundane days and nights of no sleeping till eartly hours. in myself i feel low , have low self opinion well i just seem to lack any positive feeling or out look. life is just not great at all. since i had my son 15 month ago im a mess. iv had counselling and medication im now at my wits end . nothing is making a difference and im getting tired of trying and failing miserably. im ranting i dont know what to say anymore dont really want to even talk about this . bien me is not great i just want the pain and everything to stop. any suggestions welcome or someone who can understand . as im feelin very aolne

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   Posted 10/28/2011 2:33 PM (GMT -6)   
I am sorry to hear you are feeling this way. Has it only been since your son's birth? Perhaps it is postpartum depression?

If your current counseling is not working, let your therapist know or look for one that might have a better fit. Don't give up! All you need to do is take one thing at a time, and you can make it through the worst moments that way. Keep busy doing things you enjoy so you are not left ruminating with depressed thoughts. Have you tried sleeping pills or other methods of helping you sleep?

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   Posted 10/28/2011 2:58 PM (GMT -6)   
thank you. I felt well and was signed off by my peri natal health counsillor about five month ago. i used to keep busy to pass time to not think but lately i find it hard motivating myself at all. i somatime even find it hard to know what to do or know what i should be doin to just get througt the day. im scared to go back to doctoors and telling how i feel. i have and do have feelings of not bien able to carry on .. its easier to say that here. not easy in reality to say. think i need to go back to doctors .

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   Posted 10/28/2011 3:03 PM (GMT -6)   
I suffer from depression and anxiety/panic attacks. I've , just got out of the hospital last Sat. I feel worthless, stupid and alone. Meds are hard, because I have reactions or allergic to them. Can't even take Nyqual for a cold. All this started 5 years ago when I was diagnosed with breast cancer. All I want is to be me again (i.e. before cancer). Too much has happened in 5 years, we lost custody of our 2 year old granddaughter when I got sick from chemo, I lost the best job I've ever had, 6 of our pets died or had to be put down due to illness, my sons buddy was killed in a car wreck, my hubby's friend was killed when he wrecked his scooter and now I've lost another job. With this last suicide attemp we lost custody of our 3 year old granddaughter. I FAILED again! That's it, I'm a failure.
Sorry for the edit, but we aren't suppose to discuss suicide.  Hugs, Karen

Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 10/28/2011 2:27:38 PM (GMT-6)

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   Posted 10/28/2011 3:08 PM (GMT -6)   
Your not a failure at all. life has dealt you and yr family some very tough blows. We have to keep on trying keep on goin. x

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   Posted 10/28/2011 3:33 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi DDown,

Please don't think of yourself as a failure. We have all got challenges, yours have just been extra hard. You have been dealt a tough hand in life and it is only natural to feel badly.

Are you going to any counseling now? I hope so. You would really benefit from the prospective of a counselor at this point. I know that you probably feel that you have let your granddaughter down, but you have done the best you can. I hope that wherever she is right now, she is okay. Can you continue to see her and do things with her? I sure do hope so. You are a wonderful grandmother, don't ever forget that.

Do keep posting, know that we all care. If you feel like it, feel free to start your own thread.

Hugs, Karen


I wanted to but in and welcome you to the forum too. I think I forgot to say that to Down. It seems that we are all going through a rough time right now. I wonder if the seasons are effecting us. The shorter days and gloomy weather. That is what I have had. I don't know about you all. But it is harder to get out and do things. Trapped inside it feels like.

I hope you all feel better soon. Keep on posting. We are here for support to you all.

Hugs, Karen
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   Posted 10/28/2011 6:17 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi new folks

welcome and sorry for your woes. This forum has been a godsend for me cause I can be myself and y'all can't run away from me-lol. Seriously, very nice people here with lots of encouragement and good advice. I make myself find 5 things to be grateful for everyday. Sometimes it is hard but I do eat every day and have a roof over my head and still have some family that loves me and my dogs and sun on my face and see...I have 5 already.

Elizabeth-you have the greatest gift there is, but I remember 15 months-they are hellions and they never want to go to sleep. It sounds like post partum or hormonally induced...keep trying meds til you find a good one, it takes aqwhile.

Down-you still have your husband and your grandbabies are alive and healthy right? You kept them as long as you were able so don't be so hard on yourself. And maybe Grandma is not quite healthy enough rght now to care for them-get you better first, everything else will fall into place

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