Seems like last week, doesn't it? Yeah, no sleep...I get about 5 hours a nite now and it adds to my already spacey nature-lol. My husband is bipolar also, but he is slow cycler. I was praying his manic phase would end b/c he is not on meds and now he is down and it is hard to watch him cry, he's always so up (too far up w/o meds). He has agreed to go back on meds in a week when he sees our Doc, but no counselor...jamiee he has terminal prostate cancer and it is in remission but it's coming back-they gave him 2 yrs 5yrs ago, but surgery did not get all of it and he won't talk about IT-lapsed irish catholic altar boy-lol...he needs a counselor...it is just so hard to see yr family struggling...I would give anything for my family to be well... I guess I felt that if I was hurting enough, maybe they would be spared but that is not the way the universe works.
How is it that some people just seem to lead such charmed and realtively painless lives? I know people who have never suffered any great adversity: no mental illness, no Katrina, no close deaths, no abuse and others seem to just get heaps of it... are we like drama-magnets or what? LOL!!!
Anyway, rambling on and sitting up has helped pain a little, so thanks as always for being there.
Luv ya back
"We never realize how strong we are, until being strong is the only thing left"
Major Depressive Disorder, ptsd, fibromyalgia, chronic pain, l3/4, L4/5 gone, bursitis arthritis sciatica
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