Like the title says, I had a bad day at work. Overly stressful, too much going on, no one wanting to help. I'm the only manager there who seems to really care about
anyone or anything. Due to all of the interviews and new hire orientations going on - and because no one wanted to help with any of it - I think I may not have processed our auto center's payroll by the noon deadline to be included in their next checks. It was a few minutes after 12, and the system is very strict as to whether it submits on time. Not sure if our time is exact with our payroll company's time. I feel awful about
it, but it really couldn't be helped. They'll still get paid even if it was late, but it won't be until the following paycheck and that could cause a few problems with people relying on it for bills.
The worst part was when I did try asking for help, I was ignored and told to make all of the interviewees/new hires sit and wait, and then the store manager told me I should not having anyone waiting and was not happy about
it. I practically had to beg another manager to do an interview just so I could try to get payroll done.
I lost complete control of my emotions and it took everything I had to not start bawling my eyes out in my office. I get very nervous when that happens because it is like a tidal wave and I can't control what I say. If someone would have walked in my office when I was like that I would have lost my nerve with them. I can't afford to lose my job over that.
What's even worse is that once I get that emotional, I stay like that for the whole day and the tiniest things make me want to start crying.
Does anyone else feel like lashing out to the point of not being able to control it when you're over-emotional? I'm considering talking to my doctor but I'm going to be on so many antibiotics and supplements soon, I'd hate to add even more medication. Also, the chest pain that I thought my current antibiotic had fixed came back today from the stress. I hate that job more than I can explain. And I strongly dislike my manager (severely under-qualified, unintelligent, treats people like trash...your basic run-of-the-mill boss).
So I needed to vent that