I definitely realized how scary and unhealthy it is to depend entirely on one person :( I love him more than anyone, but i feel like I've been losing my identity to relationships, it's something I've done for a long time...I think it has alot to do with my past and probably my depression. It's comforting to see that someone else is going throughh the same thing I am....Greenbean885, do you feel better now that you and your girlfriend are apart for now? I hope it all works out for you guys no matter what you decide for the future. I'm still talking to my boyfriend through texts, and he misses me like crazy..I can see that he has depended on me almost as much as I have. Now he's saying that if he doesn't see me soon he's going to die and things like that :( I still feel the same way. I'm worried that he'll get tired of waiting for me, or just want me out of his life for good...it's really scary and sad to think of losing him.
...honestly I know it's bad but it's the only thing keeping me sane at night when I can't sleep. I'm going to keep going to my therapist and join a group for people with mental illness...for a start. I don't know where else to hang out with people in real life...very glad to have this forum though. Thank you all for replying :)
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