I don't know what I'm doing, so I guess that's why I finally resorted to this. I need to talk to someone, but don't want to affect my friends or family, or spend money to see a doctor. I don't even have anything wrong with me, but I get depressed and occasionally I consider suicide. I'm in love with someone, and they say they love me, but apparently this isn't enough to stop these feelings of depression. I figure if I truly love him, I need to leave him and not screw up his life or his family's. I mean, how can I lead a normal life with him when I'm not a normal person.