Hello everyone. I have been watching these forums for a couple of weeks. I am impressed with the true caring & compassion I see from the members of this forum. You have made me feel 'safe' enough to allow others to know what no one else knows. I have so many great thread topics running through my mind. How many get posted, well we shall see.
A Lil about
me... I am a mother of 2 children, 5 & 6 yrs. I have been battling Major Depression & Anxiety, on & off for 15 years. Depression has taken many things from me. What I am currently dealing with is fatigue & lack of motivation. I believe I have CFS, but have never been diagnosed. I could sleep almost all day if I could. My kids are the only thing that gets me out of bed. My desire to care for my children's needs, forces me to push through my depression. However, my house is a mess, and I would never let anyone come over! Everyday I battle with myself. I HATE that my house is not clean, but I cannot get myself to do it. And 'round & 'round I go! My family says, "Just get up & Do it!" I would if it were that easy!
I have so much Guilt, Anger & Frustration built up. I want to do more for my family, but just can't! I am so low that I do not find pleasure in anything but sleep & TV. After taking care of the kids, I have nothing left. I do not shower enough, brush my teeth or hair enough. Before having children, I trained horses. they were my passion. But my hubby thought I cared more about
the horses than the kids. Which was NOT true! I was forced to give up horses & stay home with the kids. That was 4 years ago.
I recently ditched the controlling man, and am trying to find myself again. Many more layers to the story. But you get the jist of it.
Again, I think you are all wonderful people & I am looking forward to getting to know you all better.
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