Is this depression?

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   Posted 11/14/2011 12:45 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi, I'm new to the forum, but not new to depression. I've been on Zoloft/Prozac since high school, more than 15 years. I suffered from bulimia and sleeping problems, but have made some pretty good progress over the past few years.

One massive, massive problem: I have to fight with myself to do anything I need to do. One big example: my apartment. I moved in more than two years ago and still not unpacked completely. Thus I am unable to have friends over because there are boxes everywhere. I don't know what the problem is but I have some sort of mental block that seems to prevent me from finishing this task. When I think I about, I get very, very anxious. I do make progress here and there. This weekend I took a box out to the garbage, that was my big accomplishment! I'm not a hoarder since I'm not attached to the stuff, and if I had the money and was not ashamed I would hire someone to come in and just clean it up for me.

I do the same thing with my bills and finances. I won't pay bills on time, even when I have the money. Thus, I constantly get late fees and overdraft fees and my credit is terrible. It's like some kind of mental block/self-destruction going on.

As long as I take the antidepressants, I don't feel depressed and have decent energy. If you knew me at work you would not imagine I was such a mess since I am very cheerful and also very smart. I'm still single but I know I can't be with anyone until I get my act together.

What the hell is wrong with me? Is this anxiety? A symptom of depression? cry

Thank you so much for any insight and support.

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   Posted 11/14/2011 1:53 AM (GMT -6)   
hi Amanda2008. welcome to the forum.

what came up for me a few times were the words mental block. i have this with my bills. i don't know which to put money on until i am advised i am about to get cut off!! so i understand this bit. i don't know if it is depression or a symptom of some form of it, but anxiety seems more appropriate. well done on your accomplishment, you did well. small steps. more people will come on with more info, have a massive fog in my head, plus i have crashed, the depression component of bi-polar, so sorry. with much healing compassion to you. jamie



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   Posted 11/14/2011 4:53 AM (GMT -6)   
Hello amanda, I am jealous, your depression is stabilised on your medications, you have goals and you are trying to achieve them. My advice try mindfullness, this helps with your concentration, helps keep anxiety and depression at bay. Goodluck this site is helpful.

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   Posted 11/14/2011 7:57 AM (GMT -6)   
Procrastination the inability to complate tasks are hallmarks of all seems overwhelming, so the key is to break it down into small bits.

Take one box ata time (per day or whatever) and put things up or repack if not needed. I must admit we finished building our homr 3 years ago, I have walls unadorned and some boxesof"stuff" in every closet-lol so don't be too ahrd on yourself..I do force myself to do dishes everyday, make beds and do a load odf laundry, and sometimes thsat is way too much but it gets done and I don't feel soooo guilty

Hope that helps
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   Posted 11/14/2011 8:29 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Amanda, Welcome!

I suggest doing one thing at a time too. Just one box. Don't pay attention to the other boxes, because then the task is overwhelming. Many times things in my house get out of control. When I am really down I don't even care about it, but once the fog has lifted, I say what in the world. Of course by then the task is huge, with every room needing some help. So I just pick one and get started. Or maybe just the dresser or nightstand. I feel good when I am done. Take it easy on yourself.

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   Posted 11/14/2011 9:25 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Amanda,

These guys gave you some good advice so I am just going to say welcome to the forum.

I hope your day is going well.

Hugs, Karen
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