I never thought I would join a forum on depression but well here I am. I was first diagnosed back in the 90's, am 53 now. Even though I also have generalized anxiety disorder, a social and OCD disorder, the depression I believe is the result of first, family genes and second my lousy life.
I geel guilty; I know others are suffering more. Moved to TX a little over a year ago, unemployed; cannot keep a job for either company budget reasons or I just cannot cope. Last job seemed good but after 5 weeks they decided they could not afford me.
Filed bankruptcy, miss my kids back northeast, and please do not mention about any bad grammar as I do not really care at this time.
I have no friends, except for online facebook friends and family who I do not talk to 'enough'.
So here I think maybe I can be myself and 'spill my beans' and hope, maybe I can get some comofrt and maybe help someone else.
I am married to an exmilitary man; he is depressed but does nothing about it but does try to do a lot around the house, things; I would be doing really. But he gets upset and says we cannot go on like this but then later says he cannot be without me.
Will talk more later.