Health Issues Causing Depression, any advice is appreciated

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Jennuine
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   Posted 11/22/2011 6:01 PM (GMT -6)   
To make a long story short, I have had a bad flare up of acid reflux these past 3 months. I've developed a problem swallowing solid foods, basically it goes down my esophagus very slowly. its very uncomfortable.

for the past month I've been on a blender liquid diet. I've been to the doctors and had some tests done. nothing has been figured out yet. I'm probably going to have to go and have more tests done. I hate being in the dark.

I'm depressed because I feel so hopeless. I'm scared that I might have a motility issue with my esophagus with the transit of food and I will have to eat this blended diet for the rest of my life. But what gets me most depressed is coping with eating this way and also worrying if they will find the cause of my issues after everything is said and done. I don't want to stay stuck in square one. I have read some posts of other people who said they had all these tests done and are still trying to get answers.

This way of eating is putting a major strain on my life. I can't eat with my family anymore, I have to eat at home all the time. I can't even celebrate thanksgiving with my family. Its been canceled. Its really starting to affect me mentally. I just want my life back. I'm not happy anymore and I don't even like to leave the house anymore, I gotta eat here anyway since I have access to my blender. I haven't been in a restaurant in 3 months let alone had real solid food in the same amount of time.

I cry almost everyday because I just want to get better and get some answers. If I had some hope that I could work my way up to eating normal again while addressing the problem, I probably wouldn't be as depressed. But I don't have that right now. I'm starting to push people away. like my mom, she invited me to go to the movies with her tomorrow just to get out but I don't want to. My boyfriend whom I live with is also getting upset because he tries to be there for me but he doesn't know what to do in terms of my mental state. I don't want to go anywhere or be around people. Why should I? So I can watch people eat when I can't and see them happy? Social situations are revolved around food a lot, especially family time. I mean Thanksgiving is around the corner.

Can anyone relate to this? I'm also worried that I'm going to develop anxiety when it comes to eating or possibly even a phobia of solid foods

Chartreux
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   Posted 11/22/2011 6:31 PM (GMT -6)   
Have you been seen by a specialists, GI doctor , if not make an appointment with one,
get an upper GI endoscopic test done, it's a scope that can look into your stomach, your under
mild sedation for it, it's not a pleasant tests...Maybe get an appointment with an allergy
doctor to see if your eating something your allergic to, maybe try taking liquid benadryl
to see if that helps...maybe post this in the allergy forum for better answers...
and get in for some counseling to help with the depression this is causing, go with
your mom to the movies just don't eat or drink anything there, you can enjoy a movie
without having to eat anything...and it might help lift your spirit for a few moments...
but yes acid reflux suchs I take medicine daily for mine, either protonixs or Zantac
as nothing else works for me...many well wishes to you and do keep us posted as we do care...
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Jennuine
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   Posted 11/22/2011 6:57 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Chartreux, thanks for your reply. I left out all the testing aspects of this post as I was trying to focus on the depression I was feeling. but maybe I should have included it. I have already had an endoscopy done, GI says no strictures or narrowing but have slight esophagitis and gastritis. I've been on several PPI's but found one that works which is Dexilant. Not really having much issues with acid in my throat, but still have reflux of food without acid. I was also scoped by an ENT and he found nothing wrong. He's the one who suggested I may have a motility problem. I had a barium swallow done which didnt really confirm anything about the swallowing, but just reconfirmed my reflux. so I'm still in square one. I have another appt with the GI and he may want to do a manometry test next for the motility.

getting by
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   Posted 11/22/2011 8:44 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Jennuine,

I basically wanted to say that I am sorry about your problems with swallowing. I hope that you get some answers and don't have to eat liquid foods all of your life. I can imagine that this is super depressing for you.

Basically I wanted to welcome you to the forum. We will do our best to help you. I see Chartreux gave you some good advice. I truly hope that you feel better soon. Do keep posting. I hope you have a happy holiday, it is coming up on us quickly. I am sorry it is a food holiday, but maybe you can still enjoy it by seeing people that you haven't seen in awhile. Try to make the best of it in the places where you can. The other will fall into place. Do keep posting. We do care about you...

Hugs, Karen
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Chartreux
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   Posted 11/22/2011 9:15 PM (GMT -6)   
Can you eat very small meals thru the day...seems like your GI and ENT doctors are doing their
best, sorry you have to go thru with this during the holidays, can you try the Altoids Ginger
Mints, they might help...But do go to the movies tomorrow, it'll help with your stress and
it might cheer you and your mom up, yeah I was trying to get your mind off the depression,
glad you have good doctors...do you keep you head elevated at night with pillows or
using cinder blocks under the bed, that might help, I have an adjustable bed and it sure helps at night
but you can raise your head using pillows and such...maybe google "motility forums/groups" and see
if there are any local support groups for it in your area, support groups can help,
wish I could give you better help...and please go seek out counseling for the depression
as one on one counseling would help you better...you could also post about motility in
the gerd forum here, might be someone whom can better help with that...keep hope you'll
get help...many well wishes....
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Jim1969
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   Posted 11/23/2011 5:20 PM (GMT -6)   
For what it is worth there are many people who can understand what you are going through. It may not be because of your exact condition but many of us have or are going through all sorts of hoops trying to either find out what is wrong and/or trying to find a treatment that works.

It can and often is frustrating, depressing, etc. Hang in there and don't stop pushing for answers. If your current medical team gets to the point they have run out of ideas don't be afraid to seek out new doctors in either the same specialty or a different one. If you haven't seen them yet you might want to consult with an ENT (ears, nose, throat) an Internist (Internal Medicine) and a Neurologist.

In the meantime it would be advisable to start counseling to help you deal with your emotions, fears, etc.
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sos007
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   Posted 11/23/2011 7:00 PM (GMT -6)   
Jenn...I agree totally with Jim...never stop looking for a different doctor, it took me 5 different doctors to get a proper dx. What one doctor knows the other may not. I also agree that this is very frustrating and depressing but, you are the only one who can fight for proper healthcare. Remember they work for you and if you do not like the results move on until you do.

I really wish you would go to the movies with your mom, I think just getting out abit you may feel a little better, buy some goodies that you can suck on.

I hope you get answers soon and feeling better soon.

Take Care, Amy

Chronic pain(nerve), fibro, mild depression

manyembers
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   Posted 11/23/2011 10:18 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi,

The bacteria h-pylori can cause acid reflux and gastritis. Did your dr. do a test for this? Just be aware that the tests for this aren't very reliable, as I've heard of several stories of false negatives - people treated themselves for h pylori and they were cured despite the test results.

But don't worry about all that. My point is, it could be caused by h-pylori which you can treat naturally. Read online about natural treatments for it such as monolaurin, wild oil of oregano, to name just a couple. You would also want to be on a strict diet - you don't have any trouble there. ;0) (I hope you don't mind the nudge, Just trying to get a chuckle in the midst of the hardship you're facing :0)

So diet is: no sugar or caffeine, lots of veggies and low carbohydrate foods. Basically, from what I read online if you follow a candida diet for two months, while taking a natural supplement that kills h pylori, it should be gone and also the symptoms if thsi is what is the cause of the reflux.

I have had gastritis symptoms which is no fun at all! And a holistic test found h pylori (even though the medical test was negative). I am doing a lot better now after doing some of the above. Also nux vomica was very helpful. It is more so related to issues with the digestion itself like ibs, so I don't know if it would be helpful in your situation or not. Have you thought about seeing a homeopath? Nux vomica is a homeopathic treatment.

A homeopath or a naturopath may be able to help you. I have found them much more helpful than medical dr.'s for most everything so far on my own journey of health recovery.

Don't give up. There are answers. Do you own research online. Google acid reflux natural treatments and see what you find. Ask at your local natural health store what they have to help.

I understand how hard it is to be on a limited diet and how left out it makes you feel. I almost always eat before I go to outings because I am on a very strict diet in order to combat the pain and fatigue of fibro. and my tendency toward a recurring sinus infection I've been fighting for several years. It is by choice, but if I don't do it I feel crappy. So yep, it is hard, but if you make the diet healthy, then you can begin to see the blessing in it rather than only the isolation.

Do you have a juicer? You could get a Hamilton Beach juicer at a drug store for cheap. Read on juicing. You'll be healthier and feel better. And certain veggie juices are healing for acid reflux, such as cabbage juice.

Take care. Don't ever stop believing there is hope and help. Most often it's just a question of hanging in there until the answers come.

embers

P.S. It is normal to feel grief, and cry and have different feelings coming up with what you are going through. It would be hard not to feel depressed. So within all that the challenge and goal I think is that as much as you can, don't allow yourself to lose hope. Keep believing for things to improve. There's no reason not to imo. yeah

Post Edited (manyembers) : 11/23/2011 9:30:33 PM (GMT-7)


Cleos
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   Posted 11/23/2011 10:41 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi, I;m new to the depression forum, but post sometimes on the ostomy site of healing well.
 
I can totally relate to how you are feeling, i was diagnosed in 2007 with Scleroderma,fibromyalgia  and from then have had nothing but health issues. No one knew how Scleroderma would affect me, and everything I read and was told that I may have 3 to 7 years to live, or even longer. I used to wake up each morning, and feel like I was punched in the stomach, and was a mess. I was prescribed antidepressants and from then on was at least able to get some sleep at night. All of my digestive tract is not goood, so had a loop Ileostomy in September this year, to at least get some quality of life back. I see multiple specialists, but now take things as they come, I know its hard but worrying does not solve anything, but can exascerbate some of your symptoms, like reflux. Anyway this post is not about me, I'm trying to make you see that life does go on, I don't mean to sound harsh.
 
If you are not happy with one doctor, go and see another for a second, third or even fouth opinion, until you get some answers.
 
Try and go out if you can, even if it is a walk in the park, a drive with your mum or boyfriend. It will do you good, and may clear your mind some. Just know that you are not alone, I always think there is always someone else worse off than me. When I get depressed, and really down, I remember walking in the cancer ward, where I worked in a hospital, and seeing babies/children and young adults with cancer. You know what they all had smiles on their faces, regardless of the pain and discomfort they were feeling through chemotherapy.
 
I have a 7 year old, so I force myself up each morning, keep myself busy, regardless to how I feel, and then allow myself to collapse in a heap at night, exhausted. But at least I got through another day.
 
Take care, you will get through this, don't give up until you get answers.
 
Cleo

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   Posted 11/24/2011 7:11 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Cleo,

Thanks for the lovely post and welcome to the depression forum.

HUgs, Karen
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beagleman
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   Posted 11/24/2011 1:39 PM (GMT -6)   
Hello all, I had reflux a while ago, seen my specialist, I was bringing up mainly coffee and some foods. The condition seemed to settle after 6 months constantly on pariet medication. I am not the best person to talk on depression, but you have support from all of us here, your family and others. Another thing dont drink anything before bed, I found when I layed down with fluid in my stomache I would bring it up, but I'm sure you probably know this. Good Luck.

Cleos
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   Posted 11/24/2011 10:27 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Karen, Thanks for welcoming me, am glad to be on board.

Take care
Cleo

Jennuine
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   Posted 11/28/2011 10:19 PM (GMT -6)   
thanks everyone for your replies. I did go out with my mom that day and it was nice to get out even for a few hours. but I'm still trying to cope with eating this way and the feelings of hopelessness that comes with my situation. I worry that I could have a motility problem. I seen my GI doc this past week and he said that if there was a motility problem with my esophagus that there wouldn't be much they could do to treat it. needless to say this didn't make me feel any better. :-(

what was most depressing is that I sat home alone on thanksgiving day because my boyfriend worked most of the day anyway, and my mom canceled thankgiving cause she knew of my situation. but when he was to come home that night I told him to just go to his family's house and have dinner over their like a normal person, so he wouldnt have to miss out on thanksgiving and worry about me. so I sat home alone until 10pm at night.

it was the most depressing holiday I've had. People take advantage of the many things we dont usually recognize, like the simple act of being able to eat and swallow our food without thinking about it. but when it's taken away, you realize how important it is. and you don't take things like that forgranted again.

Jackie_0mg
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   Posted 11/29/2011 3:22 PM (GMT -6)   
its so ironic because im in the midst of writing a resarch paper and its about surgery and emotions being the hardest problem (even though you diddnt have surgery your having some health issues) anyway i know exactly how you feel i just got my colon removed and i have anileostomy bag i have no sence or controll of when i have a bowel movement and when i have accidents (in public to) i get my bowels on my hand sometimes i sometimes cry or just say ewww-eww-ewww because its nasty . its okay to be upset and sad/fustrated to a certian point. im glad i got the surgery but some days are just hard i deffnitly know what you mean when you see we take things for granted on thing that helps me no become so sad is to help someone who is a little worse than i. I am friends with this mentaly challenged girl : shes allergic to just about everything i mash her food up for her you have to fed her she wears diapers cant speak or walk and more stuff but when i am with her everything is okay in my life and when im done hanging out with her i am not as sad i know she would chnge positions with me in a heartbeat. Also when i had uc(ulsertivecolitios ) all the medication was so much i started to become really sad i ended up being clinicly deppresed is right in my face i wrote my symptoms down in my diary but if your felling that your being drawn from people a lot more than ususall you might want to tell a profesion and that way life wont come down hard on you and you can make sence of things :) sorry so long i think my bag is leaking lol so i have to go check hope i was able to help :D
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had colon removed Oct.10,2011 a laproscopic incession w/ ileo loop (2 surgeries in 1) , temp. ileostomy bag, due for final surgery in December but am going to get it at the end of the school year. use to take 12+ pills a day down to temp. imodium pills :) stoma named Mr.Wiggels

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   Posted 11/29/2011 8:05 PM (GMT -6)   
Jennuine,
I'm glad to see you went to the movies with your mom, thought that would cheer you up
some, Sorry about how bad your Thanksgiving went...Keep hope though, maybe get
another doctor like the other said, new treatments are always coming out...keep
hope that this will be fixable...get second or ever third opinions...and look for local
support groups..maybe look for fibro support groups, we have a local fibro chapter
support group here meets every other month but they keep the pipeline
news of what people do to help each other, so keep on looking hun...I'm hopefully
for a medicine to help me is out there...(I've had so many reactions to different RA meds
I'm on a last hope and I'm hoping hard this will work), so you keep hope to..
Many many well wishes to you and do keep us posted...thinking of you...
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