To all my friends here-
Got back from hospital last night-sooo good to be in my home and bed. It was a break I desperately needed. And as we discussed, it was imposssible to help my daughter with her adhd and depression when mama was wallowing in self-despair.
They have put me on 60 mg of cymbalta and stopped welbutrin. A little hard switching meds that fast but doing alright. Some headaches, nausea, fatigue but what else is new. The only way I could describe how I felt after starting cymbalta was "brighter", so that is a good start.
I talked about all my friends on the forum and what a great support network you were and was mentioned by shrink in final meeting as a great support system. But we already know that-lol.
I have read posts that you were thinking and praying for me and I truly did feel it while there. Even hubby said to make sure I let my friends know how I was doing.
I was tested (again!) and dx'd with severe depression w/ multiple stressors and "pain disorder" which irritated me, but also I was a "caretaker" personlaity and I need to concentrate onmyself and then look after everyone else9easier said than done) it is hard to tell my heart not to reach out to those in need. That is part of who I am. Just need to curb it a little.
I have decided instead of intensive outpatent program, I will volunteer at our brand new animal shelter, where I can help others and hence feel better about myself, get out of the house and meet people.
Happy Thanksgiving! Remember all your blesssings this am, as small as some of them are. The roof over your head, the food onyour table, the people around you, our freedom from persecution and of religion. People die everyday to acheive the freedoms we have, so count youself blessed.
Yourheartfelt concern was felt and appreciated..I REALLY missed coming here every day but learned some good stuff which I will sahre at a later time..
I hope your day will be as filled with love and good cheer as mine will be
Much love to you all