Hello, Temdr, I've been through a similar situation, so I know how you feel.
First, there's an old expression that applies: "when you love something enough to let it go, it always comes back to you." Secondly, it isn't that your sons intentionally wanted to hurt you; they have not lived long enough to know how to understand your position at this point in your life. It's more of an unawareness than anything. And, too, you have been through grief and are still in one of its stages, so it would help you if you could realize that
experience is the thing that will help them to appreciate your situation.
I would try to do some volunteer work that will put you in contact with new people with whom you might build lasting friendships. There are more lonely people out there than you can ever know. Get active again in doing for others and your own needs will be 50% met, as well. Keep the doors
open for your sons, in addition, forgiving them for their ignorance of your loneliness.
If you need medication to help with the depression, please don't hesitate to ask your doctor for a proper prescription. That may help ease your transition back into a part-time volunteer position for your health. If you don't want to volunteer for work, try something like this forum for posting to others who have a problem similar to yours. You could be of great value particularly to those who are on the Alzheimer's Forum since you've lived through that with a relative. These care-givers always appreciate helpful advice about the illness.
Take care,and welcome to the Depression Forum; please continue to post as you wish. People here are compassionate and know your dilemma and will try to help.
Post Edited (It's Genetic) : 11/25/2011 2:36:49 PM (GMT-7)