Hi, I just wanted to welcome you to this forum, I'm quite new here also, this is a wonderful place to come to. You are not judged here, and there is always someone here who is willing to help or offer advice.
Regarding you having trouble swallowing your medication. I also have lots of problems swallowing tablets. Sometimes I take medication that is too big, with either a spoonful of yoghurt or apple puree, or something similar with that consistency. You will find that it goes down very easy doing this.
Just know that you are not alone, and we do care about you.