Today made me feel terrible. I always post in the Anxiety forums, but I decided that right now, this is exactly how I am feeling. I have had the feeling of just feeling my life is over, and i'll be lucky if I make it to Christmas, or my birthday, etc. I do not know why I keep hurting myself. Today I got news, that I have numerous cysts in each ovary. I searched PCOS, and I have cardiophobia, and what does it say, higher risk of heart attack, disease, etc. I am overweight, so this scares me even more. I wan't to breakdown, I feel so depressed and caught in a bubble I cannot get out of, I have been feeling like this since July and this made it 10 times worse. How do I deal with this, I feel like I am going insane. I am 18. I had an ECG done, normal, and ultrasound, and showed this. I feel lost and don't know what to do, I feel like my life is over and I am going to die any day of a heart attack or something. I know I don't deserve this.