Hey Jamie. You've got some great comments and analogies above. I've been praying that you are finding even a tiny bit of relief from all the work you've put in.
I myself have been slowly spiraling down into more active depression too. But I was thinking about your post that you wrote where you were doing everything possible to tire yourself out and fight against it. So instead of writing my own downer post tonight I am going to throw myself into action starting in the next 5 minutes, copying what you did.
You are such an inspiration and great fighter.