hi guys, have decided to totally push myself into severe exhaustion to break this cycle. i am wrecked already, having a break to type this. today i have cleaned the loo, bathroom, bath, basin, kitchen benches and i have a load of dishes soaking. no i am not manic, far from it, just trying to break the cycle of total despair. i will sweep the house, this kills my back, stuff it, it needs doing. i will do other stuff later. have made the bed and changed my linen. i will wash some clothes i have ready to go in the washer, albeit it has pissed down with storms over the past few days. been playing inspirational music, it is making me think about my love georgia. this is ok. i am not crying yet, but as her day creeps up, i sure will. so guys this is me in total and utter fight mode. i am on the field with my spear screaming ATTACK!!!! KEEP FIGHTING WITH ME. I NEED YOU ALL. you love and strenghth you have given me is truely appreciated and reciprocated back with much healing and compassionate love in return. nobody can knock me for not trying. i nearlt surrendered, but as a wonderful member said, 'jamie your too strong for that'. thx, you know who you are!! ok, things to do. love 2 you all.
EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE PERSONALITY DISORDER,
RAPID CYCLING BI-POLAR DISORDERREMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.