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BlueMoon878
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   Posted 12/4/2011 8:04 PM (GMT -6)   
I feel really alone.

I'm a crying, blubbering mess.

I saw my boyfriend for the first time in a while, and it was great, but the minute he was gone I fell to pieces.

I know Sundays are supposed to be weird, but I'm not even functional right now. Things are so great when my boyfriend's here. I don't feel lonely, my anxiety goes away, I feel loved... then he has to go home and I feel empty, abandoned, scared. I know it's stupid, but even though I do this almost every week, I still can't do it without crying or feeling awful. I'm going on three hours now of crying and feeling sick to my stomach. I know this is irrational and unhealthy, and that I should be getting ready for work tomorrow, but I can't. I feel immobilized. Frozen in this awful feeling. I want to call someone, but I don't want anyone to know how bad I feel. Especially my boyfriend.

I'm trying really hard not to drink or take my anti-anxiety meds, but I'm really flipping out.

I feel really alone.

sos007
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   Posted 12/4/2011 8:27 PM (GMT -6)   
Bluemoon...I am sorry you are feeling this way. Do you see a counciler or do you have someone you can talked to. Maybe speak with your family doctor they can put you in touch with the right places. Drinking is not going to solve your problems so I would not even go there. Drinking will just complicate your problems. Does your boyfriend just come to your place on weekends? Maybe discuss how you are feeling with hin tell him how you feel when he leaves. Is it possible for you to move closer? Sorry for all the questions but it may help to get to know the situation better, then maybe other members can offer further advice. Take a deep breath an maybe try a nice relaxing bath.....

I hope things get better soon

Take care, Amy
Chronic Pain(nerve), fibro, mild depression and a few others

getting by
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   Posted 12/4/2011 9:05 PM (GMT -6)   
Amy is right, can you tell your boyfriend how you feel when he is gone? You should be honest with him about this. You don't have to tell him how much you cry, but tell him you are sad. Do take your anti anxiety meds if you need them. But please don't drink. It just makes your depression worse. Nothing like a sad drunk, I know... So just don't even go there. It wont help matters.

Talking to a counselor would help you as Amy mentioned. Or talk to your boyfriend about movng closer. Is there something keeping you apart like jobs? Maybe one of you could transfer. Long distance relationships are hard, but you always have something to look forward to. IF you can look at it that way. I wish you all the best.

Hugs, Karen
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BlueMoon878
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   Posted 12/5/2011 8:45 AM (GMT -6)   
I do have a psychiatrist, and I have talked to him about my BF. the thing is, when I describe my situation, it does sound like we're long distance, but we're not. He lives one town over. I mostly see him on the weekends and an occasional week night. I don't know why I get so emotional when he leaves. I know that I'll see him soon and we'll talk on the phone, but I cry anyway.

After I wrote here last night, despite my better judgement, I called him and told him how I was feeling and why. He was more receptive than I expected, and he even called later to 'check on me'. I think this is a good sign, I just wish I was more stable. I like that that's how he reacted, but I don't like that I felt like that in the first place.

Off to work now. Oh joy. Thanks for listening, all. This makes me feel not so alone...

getting by
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   Posted 12/5/2011 8:57 AM (GMT -6)   
We are always here for you BlueMoon...

I am glad that you talked to him. I am glad that he made you feel better. Have a great day at work.

Hugs, Karen
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