Hi, Stillme, I'm really sorry your depression is still strong for you.
Would you be willing to share with us something about your diet? I am a strong believer that the diet has a powerful influence over the feeling tone and that certain changes will help tremendously.
If you have routinely either caffeine in coffee or in some teas, alcohol, or chocolate in your diet, you need to remove all of those from you schedule. They make depression much worse. You need to change your diet to a more alkaline state. Drink lemonade or just plain lemon with water.
Cut back on meat in your diet every day. Have it maybe 4 times a
week instead of 3 times a day. And have a large salad every single day.
Drink WATER, plenty of it every time you take a medication and keep yourself well-hydrated.
All these things will help to improve your feeling tone. It takes a while, but it really does work.
Don't smoke--all the things that are addictive are really tough on depression. Using an aspirin helps for many and has been suggested to many patients who have bipolar illness.
One big problem for depressed people is too much acidity in the
fluids of the body. All medications react with an acid residue when they are ingested, so you have to do everything you can to counteract that. The changes I've suggested help to do it.
Please go online to Alkaline Foods.com to see which foods are most beneficial for you in maintaining a relatively alkaline diet. I'll bet that you'll be amazed to see what you use in your diet that is highly acidic in digestion. Cut back on that and add more alkaline-reacting foods.
Maybe you will be able to turn things around before Christmas and have a wonderful, calm holiday.
Here's wishing you a Very Merry Christmas!