Oh......where do I start? Have posted here before and have gotten nice support. Thanks. And here I am again. Quick refresh, we moved from a city in one state to a very rural area in another. I am away from home for the first time in my whole life (57 years). We also moved my mother-in-law with us so I take care of her during the day. My husband works a lot so isn't home much and when he is home he is so tired he doesn't want to do much. M-I-L is not an invalid but she isn't well either. She has balance issues, is terribly thin and has bladder issues. We have been to the doctor so many times trying to get her medication adjusted so she isn't so drugged but now she isn't sleeping and it is just a vicious circle. I am at my wits end trying to deal with all of her issues. It just seems like one thing after another. I know that she isn't happy here and would rather be back with her daughter but she was alone during the day and kept falling and getting compression fractures in her back and also broke her foot. She misses her friends but they didn't call her back home and they don't call her now. She panics if her daughter doesn't call every Sunday. And now Christmas is coming. Every time I get in the car to go somewhere I don't want to come back. Our house back home finally sold so money will be a little easier. My husband has to go to Georgia for some training and is insisting that m-i-l and I go too. She is freaked out about
the trip bacause of her bladder issues and how tired she gets when we have a busy day going into town and such. She doesn't want to go and neither do I. We would spend 2 days in the car then 3 days in a hotel room waiting for him to finish with his class. We would then so some sight seeing and then 2 days back here. I have told him and told him that we don't want to go but it falls in deaf ears. Everything I do or say seems to upset him. Our marriage is a sham and has been for years. Why I'm still here I don't know. Its all so tangled up together and I feel like I'm stuck in the middle of a great big spider web with a HUGE spider slowly creeping toward me to swallow me up. I just want to disappear.