There are a lot of us who suffer more around the holidays and in winter in general. But it sounds like it is especially hard for you. First of all, try not to worry aout the things that you haven't got any control over. Such as what will happen to your son if something happens to your ex. You will cross that bridge when you get to it. For now, try not to think about those types of things. And you can't make somebody comply with doctor's instructions if they don't care enough to do it themselves. You have to worry about you right now and get your sleeping issues under control. That probably has a lot to do with your depression.
Have you ever tried meditation? It is a natural way that you can help yourself fall to sleep. I do it everynight before bed, and it really helps. It is also good for the mind and body and can be done at most anytime. It is a good way to keep yourself calm and centered. If you are interested, I can share what I know about it. And there are many books on meditation.
I sure do hope that you feel better soon. Do take care of you right now. I hope that you can feel cheered up and better.
Keep posting, know that we all care about you.
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies