Posted 12/14/2011 7:17 AM (GMT -6)
If you want this bad enough, I really believe that you will find a way to make it work.
I don't know you very well but I can see how strong and tenacious you are.
This really struck a chord with me. I wasted over 15 years of my life on a selfish, irresponsible alchoholic. I dated him for 13, then went on to marry him. If that isn't the definition of insanity..... By the time we finally seperated, he had sucked most of the life out of me and I had been battling depression for years. I felt like a shell of the person I had once been. I had nothing left inside to give. The only difference is we didn't have children, so I can imagine how difficult this must be when a child is involved.
But I stayed for the same reason- money. I thought there would be no way I could manage on my own and that I'd lose everything.
I did lose alot and had to start over, but my life is far beyond what I ever could have imagined now....it is calm, it is stable and for the first time ever, I'm in a healthy relationship with a man that supports and loves me and gives more to me that I feel I could ever repay.
There is a different life for you and Katie on the other side of all of this. And you might struggle, but to find happiness and peace again, the other things won't matter as much.
I know you can do it Maggie. And we'll all be here cheering you all along the way.
Please do this for yourself and your daughter. You deserve so much better.
Here for you anytime you need to talk or vent and if you want my email address, I'd be happy to give it to you.