Hello all, I feel a bit ashamed today. I visited my sister which was good but cried while visiting. I think talking about my depression as this time did not help. Feel better now, I know I remain fearful of staying single and being alone. My sister was supportive and pleased I am doing so much for myself, but I guess my problem being unable to build any self esteem about relationships. Without a starting point, a first date, holding hands or a kiss I feel like a no one, I just wish I had something to build my confidence. Yes, I am very determined, but I need direction as my lack of abilities hamper me. I hope the love coach will help me, I know it is up to me to show others I am worthwhile but I need direction. To all, thank you so much, every day I struggle with depression, and also struggle with my poor self esteem. I guess I have the knowledge now to know I can still improve myself with help so I am determined to succeed. I told my sister today I conquered anxiety a few months ago and many would think wow thats great, but I am still hard on myself and haven't really seen it as an achievement. Sorry my post is up and down but that is how I feel, struggling, it has been a very hard year.