So I am feeling much better. I had "sinusitis.." yeah whatever, it's what they call it when I have something and they don't know exactly what it is. And I have this staph infection in a very unusual and embarassing place. You take your guesses, I'm not telling lol. But I do feel more myself now. Although I still feel a little isolated (probably because I haven't spoken to anyone outside of work friends in a while) but I don't feel
like isolating myself anymore. At least today. And yesterday. Good sign? IDK!
I think I'm feeling better because the stress of school isn't weighing heavily on me now. I start back January 16, so I am sure I'll be all kinds of crazy when I start again. I am officially a sophomore now! I know, I know, I'm 25.
I started school in '05 after having graduated in '04. I had a scholarship through the school and also TOPS. I had made a 27 on my ACT so I was tested out of several courses. Everything was fine until my dad decided to confront my brother about having molested me. It was ME who was supposed to confront him about what he did. I was supposed to get that for my closure. But noooo, my dad had to "see what my brother would say." So of course, my brother lied and said I was an f'n liar and all kinds of things. My dad went so far as to call my other brother to see if it was true. Really, dad?? But my other brother knew it was true. He had seen my brother do this to me. But he was given the same threat I was, that he would hurt our mom (the brother that did this was the oldest and from my father's previous marriage; my 2 other brothers are from my mom and dad). So my brother confirmed that yes, it had happened.
You can probably imagine that at this point, I was ready to explode. I was working and going to school full time. Living with a roommate. I had to pay bills. But I felt I had too much on my plate. So I dropped out of school.
Fast forward, I finally decided this year that I was going to go back. I wasn't going to let anyone keep me from my dreams. I was strangely optimistic. It was hard and I failed English, basically because I didn't care about his assignments and stopped going. I took 2 other classes, making a C and a B. I know it doesn't sound so great, but that C in Biology made me feel like I had won the lottery!! LOL.. So, I don't have the greatest GPA right now (2.364) but I am going to strive to make it better. Now that I know what to expect and I'm back in the groove of school, I think I'll do better.
Hmm, I had only planned to say I was feeling better and tell you guys I about my grades and such, but hey, I went off on a tangent.
Have a good day, y'all! Take care!
Kelsey; 25 year old lady suffering from a slew: Depression, Anxiety, Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS), Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS), etc.