Did you enjoy being with a man more than a woman? I'm not trying to be crude. I'm just trying to understand if you are in fact gay, or bi. Your confusion over that may cause the feeling of not having the capacity to love. Maybe since you're trying to figure that out, you are subconsciously blocking other people.
I know the feeling of lacking the capacity to love someone. I am married to a wonderful man. But I.don't think I ever truly loved him or rather, was in love. I still love him, just not in that way. I was in a horrible place when he came into my life and it felt like a God send. But now, I feel that it was what was going on in my life that made me feel like I needed someone. And he filled that void. I've had a lot of things happen to me and I think that has shaped the way I view love. I've become more acquainted with it now, though. And you will, too.
Just because you think you have no reason to be that way, doesn't mean your feelings are any less important. Sometimes, we just don't understand. Other people can see us, better than we can see ourselves.
So it wasn't a nasty breakup or it was just something that both of you needed to happen but its hard to accept? You said on a day to day basis that you're mostly okay with it. Do you really feel that way?
Welcome to the forum!
Kelsey; 25 year old lady suffering from a slew: Depression, Anxiety, Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS), Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS), etc.
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