Hello, Brianneb, and welcome to the Depression Forum,
You have some heavy problems to deal with, no question about
it. Why not try to see a psychiatrist to find out what is happening with you and the depression? Perhaps a diagnosis and medication might make you feel better.
Secondly, you need to talk with a therapist about
your boyfriend's bipolar illness. You don't mention what kind he has, whether it's bipolar I or bipolar II. There are significant differences between the two, and both he and you need to know so that he may get on proper medication to relieve the negative release of the illness and look for happier days.
Major decisions about
whether to marry someone who has bipolar illness and is reluctant to get medical care might leave you in a very vulnerable position as his wife, because the illness does not get better without treatment. In fact, it gets worse. So it's really imperative for your own health that you know all your doctors and your research into bipolar illness reveal to you about
the condition called Bipolar Illness.
There are many happy marriages between bipolar couples who seek treatment and know how to care for themselves, not so many for marriages in which one or both partners have the illness and are unwilling to do anything about
trying to heal.
Please get the help you need and encourage the young man to get the help he needs now so that you both may know what you are dealing with.
You will understand it all soon if you seek the help you need.
Have a good Christmas and keep in touch as you need to discuss your situation.
Post Edited (It's Genetic) : 12/18/2011 8:01:01 PM (GMT-7)