as you can tell i have become distant. i am at a loss to explain why. tonight i was at a barbeque with steve at irene's and i had to leave, i felt awkward, and i needed to get the hell out. i know i have been distant on the forums too, sorry, but i feel useless. this makes me sad. i feel sad, you know i am a smart man, a academic man, a compassionate man, but at the moment i have become numb. yeah i have a lot going on-but this is new to me. frankly it sucks. i already feel inept on the forums as it is, this just takes the cake. maybe my brain and body needs rest, but i have been doing that. having steve here is hard, soon i would like him to go home. need my place back to myself. thx for listening,
with healing compassion to you all, jamie
EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE PERSONALITY DISORDER,
RAPID CYCLING BI-POLAR DISORDER
REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.