Hi Same Old,
Please don't regret posting. You are reaching out. That accounts for a lot. How do you feel about books? There is a good self help book called "Feeling Good" by Dr. David Burns. It is a really good book on cognative behavioral therapy. It has been around for many years. I first read it in the 80's. And I have the book still. Please do try something like that.
How do you feel about supplements? Vitamin D3 helps a lot. Especially this time of the year? It helps to make us feel better mentally and physically. It doesn't cure anything but it helps some, which is better than nothing. Also walking helps. It seems to be a life saver for me. I can't walk a whole lot, especially in the winter. I put my mp3 player in and dance. It helps. If nothing else, it is a good laugh.
I am sorry you are feeling the way that you are right now. I truly hope that things get better for you. Don't think of it as a lost cause. There are things that you can do that are in your ability and are free. Such as meditation, taking some supplements and trying to get a five minute walk in a day. If nothing else, it is a distraction from the way that you feel and will alter your mood for the better. Anything is better than nothing.
Take care, and happy new year.
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies