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IWishIDidntExist
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   Posted 12/31/2011 11:58 PM (GMT -6)   
Well.. The past few weeks have been awful, I've been getting really bad headaches my doctor told me it's cause I was going on and off my medication on my own. Lost a friend today he won't talk to me because of a picture... Really stupid thing.. Fighting with almost everyone that talks to me.. Im at the point of giving up in trying to get better, right now I don't want to get better, I want this pain to stay I want it to hurt more and more each day.. Is that crazy? .. I've done things to myself I wish I hadn't.. I don't know what's real anymore.. I feel dead and invisible. Everything that happens I get introuble for.. Everyone blames me for everything. These two girls at school who push me around all the time, I finally told the teacher, I got introuble for it.. They said I was the bully. Almost got kicked of the bus because of another girl blaming me for things she did to me. I dont know what to do.. My mind is all over the place. I can't sleep. Just the look and smell of food make me feel sick.. I just want to get away from everything.. My family just makes things worse.. I hate being in this house... It's not a home to me.. Theres nothing happy about it.. I want out! I'm so afraid I'll do something bad that I know I will regret doing..

getting by
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   Posted 1/1/2012 1:57 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Wish,

I am sorry about the headaches. But the doctor is probably right. Are you taking your medications as prescribed? Because if you don't take them consistantly, they can't help you and you will have the side effects such as headaches, and dizziness, possibly the zaps too.

Why are you fighting with people? You don't have to. You can ignore them if you choose to do so if they irritate you.

Why do you feel that you want to continue to have pain? That just doesn't make sense to me. You should want to get better.

I am sorry that you are getting bullied at school. Is there anyway taht you could talk to the teacher and bus driver and get it straightened out? It is too bad that you are getting picked on.

Don't wish yourself out of the house until you can afford to live on your own. For right now, you should be happy to have it and a roof over your head and food on the table, I know it is probably something that your parents have told you but it ts true. You need to study hard so that you can ahve a job that you would enjoy doing. Instead of living on the streets or something because you have no money. There are many homeless people in this country or world actually. I am not trying to sound harsh, I just want you to look at the realistic view or what you are saying.

Try to calm down and relax. There is no sense being upset. Try to learn to meditate and have calm energy. IT gets you much farther ahead. You can control your moods and the way taht you feel.

Take care,

Hugs, Karen
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IWishIDidntExist
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   Posted 1/1/2012 9:20 AM (GMT -6)   
Thanks Karen. No, I haven't been taking them as the doctor told me too. I'd take them a couple days then stop and start again for a couple more days. I don't mean to fight with people it just ends up happening, every little thing just frustrates me. So we end up yelling at eachother. I don't know why I want to keep having pain. Yes I did talk to the principal and I just got in more trouble. So I just left it. Yes I am happy to have a good place to live and all, I just feel being here right now is making things worse. But now that I think about it, it could be because I'm not taking my medication the way I should be?
Thanks again.

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   Posted 1/1/2012 10:40 AM (GMT -6)   
Yes, please take your meds properly. It will help you to feel better. And if it isn't the right med for you, you will know that way. It is so important for us to take our meds as prescribed. Try that for a week and see if it helps. It is going to take a few days to tell.

I hope that you feel better soon.

Hugs, Karen
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Chartreux
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   Posted 1/1/2012 1:34 PM (GMT -6)   
I agree with getting by, taking your medicines everyday at the same time should help, by not taking
them your going to get a lot of ups and downs like your feeling....so please get and stick on your
medicines...School year especially high school are not easy to get through, but you shouldn't
be pushed around either make sure to let your parents know about the stuff on the bus, and maybe get
a different seat assigned on the bus, but for that girl to blame you for her hurting you is not right...
Maybe seek out help with counseling at school..and tell your parents that your having a hard time
sleeping, maybe if taking your meds like prescribe that might help with the sleep...but do keep us posted as
we do care, hope things get better for you soon, but also school years are not forever...so start
thinking about future goals like what job you'll want to do? and making goals can help...
Many well wishes to you...
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   Posted 1/1/2012 8:03 PM (GMT -6)   
I concur with your doctor and the others with your on again off again approach to your medication giving you headaches. This may also account for some of your other issues like food making you feel ill, worsening of your depression etc.

Anti-depression medications are a cumulative type medication. They must be taken as prescribed so the medication builds up in your system in order for it to work. While you may feel something from a single dose these medicines take time to actually do their job right.

As mentioned the medication(s) you are on may or may not be right for you but it takes time to discover this and you may need one or more dose adjustments for you and your doctor to figure this out.

As far as your problems with some of the kids at your school goes I suggest you go and speak to your guidance counselor and the principle about it. If you get no help doing that then contact the school superintendent. Bullying is a very hot topic issue in schools right now and I really am kind of surprised that the teacher you reported it to didn't take it more seriously, but then again there are those who prefer to keep their heads buried in the sand. I also agree that you should tell your parents about it. Finally if you continue to be bullied and the school will not help go to the police. You should also keep a log that documents who, what, when, where, etc about every time you are bullied. Details will lend credibility to your claims.
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   Posted 1/2/2012 12:55 AM (GMT -6)   
Wish-
Jim covered everything I was thinking. Right down to keeping log of who, what, when, and where this happens. It is a lot more convincing when you have exact dates, times, and people. This something I learned from the HR department at my last job. They trained us to do this in the event we were ever involved with harassment in the work place.

I hope you do seek counseling as well, whether it be a school guidance counselor or a private one. Or maybe both if you feel the need.

Take care,
Bill
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