be what it may, the world just feeds of pain, it is a conglomorite, it is beyond us.
i am in pain, sadly the healing takes an eon, i did not chose this life, this aint
living, it is just pain. who justifies what, when and where, who invades our minds,
our thoughts and feelings. who is it that hinders, degrades and weakenes us.
i am weak, was once strong. but i have over this life been maltreated, punished
and been taken advantage of. why has my life and soul been smashed to pecies,
why has my heart been torn from me and devoured by an evil monster. this is
not living. why am i crippled with illness and physical pain, why is it that i can't
function, and nor want to. why is it that i have given up, why is it? why this
pain, this pain of family dysfunction, of hatred of abuse and of hell on earth?
why? i guess i am in too much pain. i want out. this is not living.
EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE PERSONALITY DISORDER,
RAPID CYCLING BI-POLAR DISORDERREMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.
Post Edited (jamiee) : 1/9/2012 3:19:19 AM (GMT-7)