help

today is not a good day. feeling tense and frustrated. HAving crying bouts and im scaring myself. Ive just had really strong urge to ct myself, this is scarey cos i havent done that since i was about 17/18, im 24 now and since then i think ive done it twice (in past 6/9 months)

I hate this type of thinking and have not acted on that impulse, the urge is dying away now, the thing is im scared as i know once i thought is in my head i cant help thinking about it and when i have an idea it goes round and round in my head until i do something about it. which frustrates me even more.

Please help i think im going crazy!

GIjo . . . I found a number I'd like you to try.  You may have helped many others who have not posted!!  This info was found on-line. 

National Suicide Hotline Numbers :

1-800-SUICIDE
1-800-784-2433

http://suicidehotlines.com/national.html

Please call and give these folks a chance to help you.

Blessings!

Jo . . . sorry that's not a viable number for you, I found it by using Google and typing "Suicide Hotline" . . . maybe you could find something similar in your area by adding the word UK.

I just have a strong feeling that talking to a professional would be of a large benefit to you. It's hard for a lay person to understand all the fine facets of depression and hurting one's self. You are a brave person for revealing this urge. And, again . . . you have likely helped a number of people by being so verbal about your feelings.

Keep us posted.

Blessings!

 Thats a BIG You have got to stop beating up on yourself. Not knowing your situation, we can't help you or give our feedback but we can help you by being here. What is it that is frightening you? Why are you so down on yourself? This is not healthy situation for you. Did something trigger this post? Please respond so we can assist. I will pray that you do!

"Lefty"

Hi Lefty  

I have been down on myself for a while and feel like ive just got over the really low patch, things are not good now but i feel better than i did a couple of weeks ago.

I posted yesterdays note becuase i was frightened of my self ii had such a strong urge to hurt myself i had to get it out and tell someone or i probably would have done it.

My situation is that i have depression but havent really got a reason to be depressed which has really frustrated me

I need to help myself as the proffesionals are not helping. but it seems the more i want to get better the worse i get which frustrate me even more

I cant even help myself! Its all so frustrating

.........................an update>>>>>>>>>>>>

 Just thought id let you know, i have just got off the phone with my new CPN office, i have never spoken with them b4.

 I didnt get into any details with the lady who answered the phone and she didnt ask any questions, just my name.

Well now my new CPN is going to contact me tomorrow, 

wow thast feels good help may be coming tomorrow.

have a good day.

the only thing i have written down is a little diary, of whats been happening for past few weeks, the CPN told me this might be a good idea.
do you think i should show them this?

>>>>>>>>>>>update>>>>>>>>
The new cpn has just phoned me, Shes only down the road from me!!!!!
Anyway nothing much was said, just have arranged an appointment for MON. suppose its another start......just get to get to monday now.

?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

Just been to see this new CPN, dont know what i was expecting from her, but i know what i got.......nothing, well it feels like nothing.

We were there for about an hour, and i told her whats been happening etc.

All that has come out of our session is that i should go and see my GP again.....oh and also we have made an appointment to meet again in 2 WEEKS TIME. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

This is the same info that all of the others have given me" go see your GP" but when i go and see the GP he tells me to speak to the CPN who have just told me to go and see him.??????????????????????????????????????????????????????? its like im going round and round in circles. sorry to be so down but i dont feel they have helped in anyway, they havnt given me any advice on how to cope never mind moving forwards and getting over this depression.

it feels like i have no option left, i am at a loss.

Post Edited (GIjo) : 4/18/2005 1:48:14 PM (GMT-6)

Jo,

Randy (CheerDad) had a great suggestion. Have the CPN (what is a CPN?) talk to the doctor. or have the doctor talk to the CPN. Ask the CPN at your next visit:

"What can I expect to accomplish in my sessions with you?",
"How long does this typically take?"
"Is there anything I can do to expedite things?"

Be prepared to have her ask you what you expect to accomplish. But, I would want to know her take on those things. You could also ask her what she expects the GP to do for you.

Try to be proactive for yourself. It is hard, but if you go to your GP and your CPN with a list of questions, then you won't forget or chicken out.

Please keep trying and do keep us posted.

Blessings!

Jo,

Thanks for spelling out CPN for me.

They haven't helped you YET because it will take some time to establish what, exactly, it is that they can help you with. This process of "connect the dots" has a different time frame for each patient. The more you are able to express yourself, the faster they will be able to determine how best to help you. That's one big reason that writing when you feel somewhat communicative is so helpful.

I would call back and 'confirm' your appointment. If it has been canceled, you can just tell them the truth . . . that you have been feeling confused and frustrated. They are mental health professionals, they should be able to cope with this as long as you are polite.

I hope your next session is more productive for you. Keep us posted.

Blessings!