I posted earlier on the anxiety page with not much response. I'm down in the dumps today and full of anxiety. My husband hauls heavy equipment for a major pipeline company and this morning he left after being home with me and our daughter for 4 weeks. I don't know how long he will be gone this time, sometimes it is 5-11 weeks at a time.
I am usually fine during the day but as night comes on so does the anxiety. In a very big way. It scares me to be alone with my daughter at night. I usually go to his mom and dads house and we stay there over night when he is on the road. I hate doing this though because it makes me feel weak and my daughter who is 10 would rather be at home. (not fair to her) I suffer from ptsd after the loss of both parents. I also suffer from health phobias and fear that something will happen to me.
I have yet to talk to a counselor, but have my first appointment on the 23rd. My family doctor has me on Zoloft 50mg and Xanax .25 as needed. I take the Zoloft in the morning and have been taking the Xanax every six hours. I have been on them now for just over 6 weeks. They seem to be working okay, except for times like these.
I am going to try and stay home tonight as I know that this is a hurdle that I MUST jump and overcome. I am not sure how, and thought that maybe some of my friends here would have some advice?!
I know that it sounds petty to some of you , but truth be known, I don't know how to deal with this!!
Thanks and Blessings, Michelle