My major problem has been depression, I think - so I decided to write here. I also regularly read the fibromyalgia board and another board for borderline personalities. So, I've looked there, there, and here and don't find a place where I belong. Not just boards but in life...
I don't recall ever feeling so many low lows in my life (I'm 47). It used to be I was always pretty flat in my depression - I knew I had trouble having fun so that was what got me to a therapist the first time about 15 years ago. All my life though, I think I've been a pretty straight line a few degrees below everyone else. I hope that makes sense.
But lately it is changing....I'm having lows that are pretty low sometimes. I think a lot about what one thread here says I can't talk about. I want to or do cry, which has been a VERY rare occurance for me since childhood. I don't want to work and I'm a workaholic.
I also don't feel good. Nauseous, aches, pains, tiredness.
I'm sorry I'm not being very communicative but it is the best I can do right now. I don't even know what I want or why I'm writing....maybe someone else does. I'm also very lonely.
so sorry,
Emi