I'm a freshman in college, and I have an eating disorder. I've bene regularly seeing both a nutritionist and a therapist, but for a while now, both my therapists (home and at school) have been telling me to go see a psychiatrist for an evaluation. Begrudgingly, I did so, and he recommended that I try some anti-depressants. He didn't actually prescribe me anything yet, but he mentioned some more or less weight-neutral, gentle anti-depressants like Prozac or Lexapro.
I've never been on anything like this in my life. I'm terrified of having to need this, and at the same time, regardless of professional opinion, I don't know if I do. I mean, yes, I have trouble coping and I do end up doing some things that are probably less than... great. I just don't know what to do. Should I take the meds if he prescribes them or not? I know that ultimately it is my decision, but I feel so lost in this whole process. I'm scared that taking these pills will not only make me more like my mother, but also make me weak (and I really mean this just in regard for me, I don't think this of anyone else).
I'm scared. I'm scared that taking these will make me worse or make me lose weight, or even gain weight. I feel like it's a lose-lose situation for me. And even as I type this, I know it's bad, but I'm falling back into my eating disordered habits, destroying any progress that I might have made over the summer. Can I just get some opinions or advice on this? I know that I have to make my own decisions, but some advice would be welcome.
Post Edited (Une Fille Mysterieuse) : 1/26/2012 11:44:35 AM (GMT-7)