I recently turned 40 and have been battling depression for years. Until about 2 years ago I could manage, now I fight everyday to make it am constantly thinking. My upbringing was very strict as I come from a very religious. I was sexually assaulted when I was younger and when I went for help, I was raped by the youth leader. I have issues with women as I was abused emotionally and physically. I have no sense of self and spiritually am searching for a God different than the one I was taught about. The abuse is too numerous to mention, but I am a mess. I am married with 2 children. I have been in therapy on numerous antidepressants and still have no healing. I am ready to give up as the hatred for myself grows stronger each day. I just want some peace and some healing. What can I do?
I had to remove a couple words from your post as we aren't allowed to discuss suicide on this forum. I understand it was an important part of your post, but it si against the rules. I am sorry. Hugs, Karen
Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 1/29/2012 5:45:29 AM (GMT-7)