Hazeleyes, Welcome. I am not sure what to say other than I am here when you need someone to listen to. Life is never easy and I often question why some events occur. I will never know the answers in this lifetime but hope to find the answers in the next life. If all that is keeping you going right now is your family, cling to them. If is enough to get started on finding out who you are and which direction to face to find the happiness each of us desperatly seeks. Good luck and please don't be a stranger.
We can respond to irritation with a smile instead of scowl, or by giving warm praise instead of icy indifference. By our being understanding instead of abrupt, others, in turn, may decide to hold on a little longer rather than to give way. Love, patience, and meekness can be just as contagious as rudeness and crudeness.