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stkitt
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   Posted 1/30/2012 11:04 AM (GMT -6)   
Dear friends,
 
I have a love/hate relationship with my life.  Say a little prayer for me as it has been a long six years and still I struggle. 
 
Kindly,
Kitt 

RisaA
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   Posted 1/30/2012 11:21 AM (GMT -6)   
*Hugssssss*

I don't know if it helps much, but... I understand that feeling well. We're all here for you and wish you the best. Take care, and try to focus on that "love" part of your relationship. :)

Post Edited (RisaA) : 1/30/2012 10:27:26 AM (GMT-7)


It's Genetic
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   Posted 1/30/2012 11:59 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi, Kitt,

I'll say a prayer for you several times this week and off and on as I remember it.

I would recommend a little paperback called "Forgiving and Moving On".  We have to learn to forgive ourselves as well as those who need to be forgiven. This little work of art gives you excellent ideas from one who has "been there; done that". I recommend it highly. In fact, I was re-reading portions of it this A.M. waiting for my med appointment.

Take care; I think about you often.

It's Genetic

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   Posted 1/30/2012 12:49 PM (GMT -6)   
sending lots of prayers your way! Hope that you feel better soon! Ups and downs are a part of life. May you find happiness! take good care. :)

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   Posted 1/30/2012 2:56 PM (GMT -6)   
Many Prayers for you and just take things a day at a time...and
don't push...Hope your feeling better soon...many well wishes and Prayers....
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   Posted 1/30/2012 3:15 PM (GMT -6)   
with much healing and loving compassion, jamie.
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REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.

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   Posted 1/30/2012 4:07 PM (GMT -6)   
My Sweet Dear Kitt,

I am so sorry that you are going through a hard time. You are in my thoughts and prayers all the time. As well as many others here. You are all so dear to me.

I agree with one day at a time. I think that is all we can do. Know that you are very dear to many of us. We all want to see you feel better. We are all in your corner.

Keep posting and let us know how you are doing.

Huggles, Karen
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   Posted 1/30/2012 9:13 PM (GMT -6)   
Kitt my friend,

So sorry to hear you are having a tough time again. You are in my thoughts and prayers, feel better my friend.

Take care,
Bill
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CassandraLee
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   Posted 1/30/2012 10:00 PM (GMT -6)   
Kitt: I'll say a lot of prayers for you.  You have done so much for so many of us.  Unfortunately, we can get respites from this disease and feelings but it will never fully go away.  What you need now is to dig down and grab that strength we all know you have, and remind yourself that good things will happen again.  Just try to take good care of yourself in the meantime!
 
Cass

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   Posted 1/31/2012 6:39 AM (GMT -6)   
Big hugs to you Lil Ole Kitt,

May you find the strength you need in this difficult time, and may the difficult time pass quickly

stkitt
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   Posted 1/31/2012 8:55 AM (GMT -6)   
Dear Friends,
 
Today is my appointment with my Psychiatrist and it never fails to cause me stress and plumments my depression as I started worrying already yesterday about how today's appointment would go.   I feel so dang sad to think that 6 years after my major meltdown that I am still struggling and this is when I begin to feel hopeless. 
 
I hate taking all the meds as it makes me feel weak when in reality I know that I must as going med free is crippling for me.  I have talked my heart out with my therapist and I try to concentrate on the good things in my life. 
 
My depression makes me feel so very, very lonely and I don't know how to get past this.  I am sure that people with medical disorders must feel this way too as it is a personal battle dealing with your medical and mental health disorders.  So I come here and ask for support to help me be brave and wise as well as  to talk with people who understand depression.
 
You are a very special group and I am so thankful that you are here where I can reach out when I become overwhelmed.
 
Blessings,
 
Kitt
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   Posted 1/31/2012 9:24 AM (GMT -6)   
Sweet Kitt,

I know you are going to feel better. I hope that your appointment goes welll. I always get stressed when I have to go. But find there was nothing to be stressed about when I get there. I hope this works for you as well. Do keep us posted as to how your appointment goes.

Luv and gentle hugs, Karen
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beagleman
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   Posted 2/3/2012 9:04 AM (GMT -6)   
Hello Kitt, I will say say a prayer for you, I believe strongly in god, after 12 months being so so desperatley depressed I retuned to church and I prayed and so did a small group of christians prayed for me and within a week I met Flora. I think it was necessary for me to be depressed so bad that it would make my life so abysmal that I would take action and make changes to my life and be a better person, that is what I think now, I truly believe it was gods plan.

Kitt, god loves you very much, I hope you will get results as quickly as me. I never thought I would make a positive from depression but what I said about my depression being necessary I really believe to be true.

justwant2bemeagain
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   Posted 2/3/2012 10:50 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Kitt and Generic,

Kitt I pray everyday for my friends on HW, so know that you are in my prayers everyday. Generic mentioned a good book that I think everybody should read. I am reading a book right now that is also amazing... " The Magic of Forgiveness" ( Emotional Freedom and Transformation at Midlife) by: Tian Dayton, Ph.D. This is the same author who wrote "Daily Affirmtions for" Forgiving and Moving On". Check it out if you haven't already. I think that both of you will enjoy it. Have a Super Duper Day !! Wishing you well... :-)

Blessings, Michelle

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   Posted 2/5/2012 3:36 AM (GMT -6)   
here for you. feel better soon, jamie

with much loving and healing compassion.
EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE PERSONALITY DISORDER,

RAPID CYCLING BI-POLAR DISORDER

REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.

Chartreux
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   Posted 2/6/2012 10:56 PM (GMT -6)   
Hope your doing better each day, thinking of you...and we are here
for you too....take things just one day at a time, hun....you are such a nice
and very special person...remind yourself of that....
Many well wishes...
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   Posted 2/7/2012 5:41 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Kitt

How did appt go? You aare in my prayers-sometimes I feel my life is a continual prayer up to God-lolHe must get tired of me "Oh here comes that pesky Maggie again" but He klistens everytime and answers in His time....I hope your time is near Kitt

Love Maggie
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CassandraLee
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   Posted 2/7/2012 6:37 AM (GMT -6)   
Kitt:  I have been wondering too, how your appointment went and how you are doing right now.  Please let us know how you're doing because we truly care.
 
Cass
 

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   Posted 2/7/2012 2:41 PM (GMT -6)   
Hey there Kitt,

Sending you lots of love and support. Be gentle with yourself, you are a very strong person and can truly get through anything, so this too shall pass my friend.

We are all here for you in this time of distress. Have a bubble bath tonight :)

Let us know how you are doing.

Many hugs,
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stkitt
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   Posted 2/7/2012 3:50 PM (GMT -6)   
WOW, I am overwhelmed as I thought perhaps my post was insignificant to what I read others going through in this forum.
 
I did see my Pdoc and we agreed to up my dose of Ritalin to 10 mg twice a day which is causing me to feel a bit hyped but I want to give it a chance so I will stick to the new dose and not panic.
 
My Pdoc is a great lady but for some reason this last visit really set off my anxiety and my depressive thoughts.
 
The tough part is I know the answers to how to help myself but then my emotions just take over and sink my ship !
 
I miss my Dad, and my sisters and brother and most of all I miss my son.  You would think I could get past this and I pray that they are all up above and keeping an eye on me. I have a flock of angels and yet I find it so hard to feel happy. 
 
Your kind and gentle words bring me comfort.
 
Kindly,
Kitt
 
 
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   Posted 2/7/2012 8:22 PM (GMT -6)   
they are kitt. they are. love 2 you. jamie
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RAPID CYCLING BI-POLAR DISORDER

REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.

CassandraLee
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   Posted 2/7/2012 8:48 PM (GMT -6)   
Kitt: Your posts are NEVER insignificant.  I know how much loss you have experienced over the years and as contradictary as this sounds, your reaction and feelings seem perfectly "normal" to me.  I would be worrying if you didn't experience any side effects.
 
Even if you're not feeling it at the moment you are a very strong lady.  Just look at the number of posts/replies you have made to others needing help while you have felt so unwell yourself.
 
Because you always treat others with so much respect and dignity and give of yourself, I'm assuming that you probably have hundreds of angels looking out over you.
 
Keep fighting this!
 
Cass

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   Posted 2/8/2012 6:05 AM (GMT -6)   
Just as you have been here for us, we are here for you--we are thankful to have you

Prayers for contentment
Maggie
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stkitt
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   Posted 2/13/2012 11:19 AM (GMT -6)   
Good Morning,
 
I so appreciate each of you and this afternoon I am going to post to others here in this great forum as I owe so much to each of you and if I can share and help others then I will feel good about myself.
 
The Ritalin has kicked up my anxiety into high gear mode which has caused me to feel afraid to leave home as I feel like I am going to jump out of my skin.  Of course we all know that when anxiety is high then we start to feel depressed and bad about ourselves. 
 
There are times when the Ritalin makes me feel good and I am not just parking on the couch all day but being afraid to leave home is not good either.  I wish someone would just take control and make decisions for me but I know that I am responsible for myself.  I am just so danged confused as what to do next.
 
I actually made an appointment with my therapist even thow it makes me feel like a failure that I cannot survive on my own I know it is time to ask for help.  I just hope I can get out the door and to the clinic when the day gets here.
 
Well that is where I am at.  If I had a magic wand I would wave it and make all the wonderful people who suffer with depression better.  We would all feel good about ourselves and be happy.
 
Love ya all,
Kitt
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   Posted 2/13/2012 5:07 PM (GMT -6)   
Maybe vyvanse would help you Kitt. That is what I am taking now. I understand it doesn't cause anxiety and it is non addicting. Maybe a low dose would work for you. I am taking 60 mg a day, but am going to ask about 80. I need the stimulant effect. It is rather expensive though. Pricier than ritalin and adderall. I was taking adderall, but there is a shortage of it and I switched for fear that my pharmacist couldn't get it. I like the vyvanse okay, but liked the adderall better. But as long as I can get out of bed, that is really all that matters to me. Though I feel I could be more productive on a higher dose.

Being that my psychologist said it wasn't addicting, maybe your doctor would be more apt to try it. It is L-amphetine. I guess the L is for L-lysine. You can look it up and find out more about it. It is about time you found something that worked for you. This is suppose to be easy to start working and no crashing when it wears off. Though if I don't take an afternoon dose, I find I am wanting to go to bed at 7:00. So I take it in the morning and then again around noon.

I am rattling, but it is worth a shot. Read about it and let me know what you think.

Hugs, Karen
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