I have clinical depression, touch of bipolar and social anxiety....all wrapped up as 'treatment resistant'.
I've had problems most my life but managed thru till a breakdown 5-6 years ago. Financially stable since surprisingly not going into work at my own business it has somehow survived! Since I've been yo-yoing between getting a bit better..... not getting better...more meds...... & more meds! Hope......then no hope. I really tried very hard to help myself. But last two years have just got progressively worse.
Tired of it all, just haven't got hardly anything left in me anymore, to try again, it's too hard. So often just can't get up...what for, what's the point.... an all that? Friends fell by the wayside and family can only take so much.....you worry your'll lose them too.
You can't blame anyone but no one, even the psych's, just don't know what it feels like...do they.
I looked for a forum that seems active, helpful and caring and wondered if having contact with somebody who has similar problems might help? Someone you can empathise with, share feelings with (but not overly burden each other) and lot's of general chat. Like a pen pal (email pal)!!! Someone to correspond with, say once a day? I've never contributed to any forums or chat rooms nor with an email pal before! So I don't know if it'll work out for the both of us.
(Nothing personal but I'm not sure I could do it with another male!! Nor somebody pushy about
religion. That's all.)
Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 2/3/2012 1:39:40 PM (GMT-7)