New Topic Post Reply Printable Version
[ << Previous Thread | Next Thread >> ]

Ellie_Jelly_Bear
New Member


Date Joined Feb 2012
Total Posts : 8
   Posted 2/12/2012 3:40 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi everyone,

I just thought I'd pop onto the depression forum and say hello.

I'm Ellie and I've been really depressed recently trying to deal with a new house move but all is going ok so far. I'm only worried about bills and rent as it's mine and my partner's first time renting. I'm social phobic too so I've not really been out lots but I'm trying to get out anyway with the help of my partner. Hopefully I'm trying for the police force in April but I'm quite scared about that too. I'm not very good with change to be honest lol. I'm also being checked for pelvic inflammatory disease and it has been scaring the living daylights out of me because I also want a cervical smear to rule out cervical cancer but because I'm only 21 the doctors aren't taking precaution on that and not letting me have one which I find unfair, due to the fact they've all been slightly concerned with my cervix. Hopefully it's just PID so I can get treated for it asap. I've heard it causes infertility too but I think if I do have it, I've had it for 7 months, symptomatic so I should be ok.

Umm, I don't really know what else to say, other than I hope every one is happy and well :)

lots of love, Ellie <3
The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want <3

bayoub2
Veteran Member


Date Joined Sep 2006
Total Posts : 2861
   Posted 2/12/2012 5:31 PM (GMT -6)   
welcome ellie

lots os new stuff going on in yr life-that's plenty to make you a little anxious. Glad you found us and hope you will post and let us know how you are.


I find myself isolating at home a good deal too and have to make myself go out...try taking a 5 minute walk tomorrow, see how it feels...it's good for depression, pain anxiety and stress. Are you seeing a counselor and/or taking meds? They have terrific panic attack meds now. Please consider getting help-you are young and should be out there painting the town red!!!!

Again welcome
Maggie
"We never realize how strong we are, until being strong is the only thing left"
Major Depressive Disorder, ptsd, fibromyalgia, chronic pain, l3/4, L4/5 gone, bursitis arthritis sciatica

seroquel, hydrocodone clonazepam norvasc multi vitamin and magnesium

Ellie_Jelly_Bear
New Member


Date Joined Feb 2012
Total Posts : 8
   Posted 2/12/2012 5:43 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Maggie,

Yeah I'm not too great with lots of new stuff in one go. It confuses and agitates me but I've not done too bad so far. I've got to go into the city tomorrow anyway for everything that concerns the flat and my partner will be with me so it'll be less stressful but what I'm terrified about is looking for work; being social phobic prevents me going into it but I want to be a police officer and they recruit pretty soon so I definitely want some confidence for then. Last thing I want is to be turned down for not being confident enough. That wouldn't be too good. No I've not been to the doctors for depression/social phobia, I've only been for internals and ultrasound scans for the PID check. Would a counsellor be good for me; I've never really felt the need for them before. How could they help?

Thank you for welcoming me by the way. It's put a big smile on my face.

Ellie <3
The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want <3

getting by
Forum Moderator


Date Joined Sep 2007
Total Posts : 42609
   Posted 2/13/2012 8:36 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Ellie,

I had pid before. It is very painful. I am sorry that you are going through it. It occured to me about your social phobia, are you going to be able to do a police job? Will it interfere? I think counseling would help you very much. It would help you get over your fears. And anything else standing in your way of your goals. So please try it out. It gives us confidence.

I hope that you feel better soon. Keep posting. You have come to a good place.

Hugs , Karen
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia


fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies

Ellie_Jelly_Bear
New Member


Date Joined Feb 2012
Total Posts : 8
   Posted 2/13/2012 8:49 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Karen,

Your telling me it's painful. I get bleeding too so that's making me worry because I've been on contraceptives for a year that stopped my periods so for bleeding to suddenly occur is frightening, especially when cervical cancer springs to mind too. Well I'm going to try the police force, it's worth a try at least. I told my partner I will go for it but if it gets too much, I'm dropping out and going into a teaching career; only problem there is that I don't like the sound of university. I don't think I would be confident for that either. The counselling sounds a little daunting, I don't really like to be questioned on my personal life if you get me. I just keep myself to myself and try to get on with life but if they could help me with my confidence then I guess I could give that a try too.

Thanks for your response. It was really uplifting and supportive.

Ellie <3
The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want <3

getting by
Forum Moderator


Date Joined Sep 2007
Total Posts : 42609
   Posted 2/13/2012 8:59 AM (GMT -6)   
Counseling can help you with your confidence. But if you don't want to try it, there is a book that you can get called "feeling good" By Dr. David Burns. It is about cognative therapy and really easy to read. Also there are a couple of online sites that are free.

http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/welcome

http://ecouch.anu.edu.au/welcome

I hear that moodgym is very helpful. I hope that this helps. I want to see you succeed. You sound like a very nice person.

Hugs, Karen
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia


fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies

Ellie_Jelly_Bear
New Member


Date Joined Feb 2012
Total Posts : 8
   Posted 2/13/2012 12:26 PM (GMT -6)   
Ooohh self help could work. I mean I will ask to see a counsellor if self help doesn't work but I'll have a look at the links you've provided me with in the meantime.

I've never heard of moodgym, it sounds really good. Awww thank you, I really really want to get into the police because, other than teaching it's the only other job I've wanted to get into. Lots of my mates say I'm loving, dedicated, caring (and very willing to help others when they feel down or have personal issues) and I know that will help me in teaching at least. I'm very giggly too, well when I'm not depressed that is lol. I do tend to worry too much, only when it's something I cant control.

Oh yeah on the subject of worrying, I'm worrying about not being able to pay the rent. Something occurred today that may delay the housing benefits to 6-8 weeks and mine and my partner's rent is due on the 10th March, so I'm sitting on the edge of the seat to be honest. Oh well, I'm sure it'll be ok.

Ellie <3
The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want <3

getting by
Forum Moderator


Date Joined Sep 2007
Total Posts : 42609
   Posted 2/13/2012 6:11 PM (GMT -6)   
I am glad that you are happy with the sites. To be honest, moodgym is the one I have had the best feedback from. The book is good too.

I learned to not worry about the things that we have no control over. And to try to stay in the moment. Meditation really helps too. It can calm you down and help you to stay in the now. You sound like you really want to help yourself and that is a good place to start.

Keep your chin up. Stay giggly...

Hugs, Karen
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia


fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies

theHTreturns...
Elite Member


Date Joined Mar 2009
Total Posts : 20279
   Posted 2/14/2012 6:32 AM (GMT -6)   
welcome from me too!!! keep strong and know that we care. with healing compassion to you,
jamie. keep posting
EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE PERSONALITY DISORDER,

RAPID CYCLING BI-POLAR DISORDER

REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.

Ellie_Jelly_Bear
New Member


Date Joined Feb 2012
Total Posts : 8
   Posted 2/14/2012 6:50 AM (GMT -6)   
How do you stop yourself from over worrying. Sometimes I get really poorly with it. My partner's dad gave me a meditation book and DVD for Christmas so I think that now I feel a little more settled in that I will get it out and try it. I've read a bit of the book. It's really good from what I've seen.

I do really want to help myself. I can't go to the doctors at the moment. Something quite humiliating happened yesterday that drove me and my partner out as soon as we possibly could. Me and a few mates, my partner's dad and my brother spoke about it last night and they was disgusted at how we was treated. It's a bit of a fragile matter. We've moved into a foreign majority area near Derby (UK) and already were getting looked down on quite badly. We're going to try a different doctors if we don't bump into the same problem again so it's cool, I think. But I'm starting to feel uneasy about living here. Apparently crime statistics are high too and I've seen lots of police around already. We've got a short hold lease for 6 months so I guess were stuck here until then, unless there is a way we can get out before then. We've gone onto the council list but that's about it so far. I've not been out of the flat at all today. I just feel so out of place and un-welcomed, it's even got to my partner a little.

Anyway I'll try stay giggly, my partner cheered me up by tickling me earlier so that made me giggle lots. I hope your well too Karen.

Ellie <3
The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want <3

getting by
Forum Moderator


Date Joined Sep 2007
Total Posts : 42609
   Posted 2/14/2012 8:43 AM (GMT -6)   
Sounds like you are not in a good place to live. I hope that you stay safe. You probably didn't realize that the crime rate was high when you moved in. I am sorry to hear this.

Meditation is cool. I do it a lot. It is free and witnin yourself. So you have all the power. Keep practicing, they say practicing is actually doing it. So give it a try.

Hugs, Karen
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia


fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies

Ellie_Jelly_Bear
New Member


Date Joined Feb 2012
Total Posts : 8
   Posted 2/14/2012 4:12 PM (GMT -6)   
It's not the best of all places, but we'll be ok. We have the whole flat locked and windows shut, so no-one can get in.

I have done meditation before. It feels as if you feel lighter and care free. So I'll try it tonight whilst we have our candles lit tonight.

We stayed in all day. My partner cooked us a Valentines meal and he lit the candles and now were just cuddling on the settee. I feel really special to have him. He's my darling <3

Ellie <3
The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want <3

Ellie_Jelly_Bear
New Member


Date Joined Feb 2012
Total Posts : 8
   Posted 2/14/2012 4:17 PM (GMT -6)   
Oh Jamie, I didn't see you reply. I'm so sorry.

Thank you for welcoming me. I'm not as strong without my partner beside me but yeah I'll try and keep strong.

Thank you ever so much.

Ellie <3
The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want <3

getting by
Forum Moderator


Date Joined Sep 2007
Total Posts : 42609
   Posted 2/14/2012 4:30 PM (GMT -6)   
Sounds really nice Ellie. I hope that you have a wonderful evening. Keep posting and let us know how you are doing. And thanks for posting back.

Happy Valentines Day...

Hugs, Karen
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia


fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies

Ellie_Jelly_Bear
New Member


Date Joined Feb 2012
Total Posts : 8
   Posted 2/14/2012 4:51 PM (GMT -6)   
It's been the best day ever. I hope you have a really nice evening too Karen and don't worry I'll keep posting. I love Healing Well, it's really friendly and helpful. Thank you.

Happy Valentines day too!!

Ellie <3
The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want <3
New Topic Post Reply Printable Version
Forum Information
Currently it is Wednesday, September 19, 2018 10:11 PM (GMT -6)
There are a total of 3,004,957 posts in 329,180 threads.
View Active Threads


Who's Online
This forum has 161752 registered members. Please welcome our newest member, minhthu215.
352 Guest(s), 7 Registered Member(s) are currently online.  Details
Shueswim, Rainy cloud, PDL17, Michael_T, Girlie, Alxander, InTheShop