Today I feel overwhelmed and frusturated. I am trying to get so many things done that I don't know where to start. It really just makes me want to sleep or just shut down I guess they are one in the same. Of course hindsite is twenty twenty as I have overcommitted myself at work and in two of my grad classes and I just want to say I give up --- all of this achievement stuff is for the birds-- but that voice inside let's me know that it is not acceptable to quit or to give myself a break. When I put it down on paper it is so stupid but if I give myself a little break I know I will come down hard on myself because in the back of my mind it is important to me. It is what I am used to. This always happens when I come close to finishing something. I am close to finishing my Teaching English of Other Languages Endorsement and my Master's. I also teach full time...... Not a life crisis just need to take some time to breathe maybe shed some pity tears for me and just do one thing toward completing my task.
I guess I want my priorities to be more than this and I am just becoming ultimately aware of it. Sometimes I want everything to change all at once but that is not how life works.... Okay thanks for listening I just needed a empathetic ear --- I got to keep reminding myself that it will get better.