I feel nothing...what can I do?

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guinevere8659
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   Posted 2/21/2012 9:15 PM (GMT -6)   
I am 17 and though I have never been diagnosed with any form of depression, I see a homeopathic counselor. It all started back in Eighth grade. The second half of that year, was a steady down spiral. I couldn't bring myself to go to school, I had to be put on homebound, and I was constantly lethargic and depressed and had some major stomach issues. Naturally, at the time, I didn't even realize that I was depressed...but it makes sense. I was holed up in my house with all my stomach and bowel pain and rarely got out because I didn't feel like it. As time went on, nothing really changed. My doctor at the time had no idea what was wrong with me except to tell me that I had IBS...which wasn't any help at all. After a while, they decided I needed to go to St. Louis, MO to the children's hospital to be checked out where, guess what, they told me I had IBS. So, then, we were still lost and my mood and pain did not improve at all.

Finally, through one of my little brother's friend's mom, I met my now doctor. She figured out that I had major problems digesting sugar and carbs, and she could give me a list of all the food that I probably shouldn't eat along with other issues I won't go into. Needless to say, she worked. At each visit we sit down and she reads my journal, talk about it, and she does an examine on me. But that isn't why I decided to post this. I decided to post this because I feel like I am falling into a never-ending pit and there is no way out. I just don't care about anything anymore. I have seemingly random bouts of crying and often feel like I just want to cry. For me, right now is either cry or feel nothing, and I am starting to go back to that dark place. I don't want to...I just don't know how to stop myself. I don't think my depression, anxiety, whatever you want to call it, ever went away. I think I have always had it...just in different degrees. And, right now I am trying not to cry so I can at least finish this post.

The main reason, I guess, that I posted this is so I can get it off my chest and have someone know...even if we don't know one another. I keep wanting to tell someone, but I don't want to bug them or burden them (another problem of mine). I know it sounds crazy, and I know I should, but, every time I gather the courage and think I will, when it comes time to, I don't. I don't know what to say to make them understand. I wrote something today about what I have been going through lately (more like the past couple of months) and I don't know if it would help or make it worse to show it to them. And I can't decide who to tell first or how to even tell them. I guess I should probably end this post now as it is all ready quite long, so bye.

Jim1969
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   Posted 2/22/2012 1:17 AM (GMT -6)   
Taking that first step and telling someone who can possibly help that you need help is most often the hardest.

I urge you though to open up just a little bit to someone about what you are feeling and going through. If you feel you can't talk to your parents then say something to your doctor, your school counselor or nurse or even a teacher that you may feel comfortable with. You can also contact your county mental health department and talk to someone there to get things going.

Depression can be overcome with the right treatment, but you will never know what the right treatment for you is until you get going with it. You have your whole life ahead of you and you deserve every chance of having a happy and fulfilling one. So please find someone to tell, someone who can and will help you and if the first person you confide in is unable or unwilling to help you then find someone else. Don't give up.
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Abby3
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   Posted 2/22/2012 4:58 AM (GMT -6)   
Hello G,
I have the same problem of finding in hard to open up to people about what I'm feeling. It helps to write things down. You could copy what you've written in this post and take it with you the next time you go to the doctor, or show it to someone else.

You don't have to live with these feelings. Depression is treatable, so have heart.

elfenprincess
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   Posted 2/22/2012 5:15 AM (GMT -6)   
I've been in that dark place, and I'm starting to fall into it again..I know how scary it is once you slip into it, but there is hope...Maybe you should try seeing a counselor or psychiatrist and telling them how you feel; they can be very understanding and maybe could help you find a way out of these feelings. Keep posting, and I hope you feel better <3

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   Posted 2/22/2012 6:14 AM (GMT -6)   
Welcome to the depression forum, I agree with the others, take your post to your counselor and get the feelings out so that you can deal with them.

I am interested in Georges book too. I hope it is a helpful one. I hope that it helps you.

Keep posting, don't give up. We are all here for you.

Hugs, Karen
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Shree Venkatesh
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   Posted 2/24/2012 5:28 AM (GMT -6)   
Depression is an extremely complex disease. It occurs for a variety of reasons. Some people experience depression during a serious medical illness. Others may have depression with life changes such as a move or the death of a loved one. Still others have a family history of depression. Those who do may experience depression and feel overwhelmed with sadness and loneliness for no known reason.

getting by
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   Posted 2/24/2012 6:12 AM (GMT -6)   
Thank you George Mason. I will read it. I often forget to check that email.

Shree Venkatesh, Welcome to the forum. Thanks for the post.

Hugs, Karen
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