Keep pushing forward, take a smart risk - 0.0% - 0 votes
Get Certs and move to new job - 0.0% - 0 votes
Re-build my family, move past fears - 0.0% - 0 votes
Find a New church, Re-build again - 0.0% - 0 votes
Don't remain stagnant, Keep growing - 0.0% - 0 votes
Just pray about everything - 100.0% - 1 votes
Posted 2/21/2012 11:51 PM (GMT -7)
it's been a few weeks since I've checked in and shared, but I thought I'd pop in for a minute before going to bed. Just feeling anxious about so many things. Just finishing up the semester in school, in short-term debt, still owe the IRS, still separated, but the wife and I took a trip out of town...we made love...it was incredible.
Unsure about my future with my present employer, don't like the position I'm in, never have since being moved over from a previous division of the department, saw something happen to someone else today and how my department director is handling it and shifting people around with no real depth into their skill level. Scary. I think it's time for me to get as many certifications I can get from within the company and begin looking elsewhere for better employment and compensation long-term. Don't want to just jump out there to another job without buying my first home, due to my tenure with the company and the benefits that that has on getting a good loan, qualifying well for a purchase of my new home. So many things t think about.
Still not comfortable going back to my the church my parents attend, want to move on, but torn because I love them and want to stay close to them, they are much older now in years. Scared, challenged, excited, encouraged, sure on one hand, not sure on the other, don't want to be alone in my old years, I see that my spouse loves me so much and wants to be with me. Decisions. Prayers, choices....
Posted 2/22/2012 4:58 AM (GMT -7)
One day at a time is all that you can do. You have a lot on your plate right now. Deal with one thing at a time.
Just because you and your wife made love, doesn't mean everything is fixed. Tread lightly with this. It is a good sign though. But will her actions change? So take that slowly. I am happy for you though...
I don't know about your job. It sounds like you are looking out for yourself and that is good. I don't understand it though so I am no help there. It does sound like you are doing all the right things though.
I also don't know about the church situation. I undertand that your parents attend there. That is good. right??? You can spend time with them out of church too. So if you have any problems with that church, maybe spend Sunday afternoons with them after church.
I hope that you don't get overwhelmed with all of this. One thing at a time. Slow and steady wins the race. I hope all works out well for you.
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