Posted 4/18/2005 7:30 PM (GMT -6)
Mopie said in her first post:
I am new to this but I figured that this would be the best place to get some feedback. My husband was diagnosed depressed almost a year ago today. He spent some time ina local mental health facility and is on medications (lexapro and seroquel). He sees his doctor every month. His problem basically started when he told me that he was having thoughts of hurting me, his wife. It scared the you know what out of him that he was having these thoughts, he couldn't control them, so he thought about ending his own life, just to get rid of these thought about me. That is when we decided he needed some outside help. Aftera year of therapy and medication, the thoughts haven't gone away. He discusses this with his doctor but all she does is increases his meds. I am really scared for my own safety!! My husband ahs necer given me any reason to believe that he would ever hurt me, but how many time have we heard of someone "snapping" and doing something crazy? I love my husband and I want him to get better. But here is the issue I am faced with now....I am thinking about leaving him. We have talked about this before and he has told me that time and time again, if i am unhappy, then he will let me go. I am thinking this because I am afraid for my life. I am not running out on him, I just think that he needs to get well first so we can work on our marriage later. I am not approaching this as a divorce, just a separation. I am willing to go to counseling with him, and I support him in every way. I just think that this is what it has finally come to. ??????