Not doing too good today. I had a great weekend, even went to my mom's and the visit went well. Ive had some disagreements with the friends I live with and things are rocky right now. Im trying to act rationallyt and not take things out of context or too personal but its hard. I want to run right now. Very manic-depressive tonight. Stupid thoughts entering my head only to be stopped by the thought of having to do a chain analysis for it later (which I guess the first one did its job...) Im supposed to be trying to use wise mind that I learned about in my DBT group but definately stuck in the emotional mind right now.
My friend that Im staying with told me (since I do nanny work for them) that if I need time for me to take it so I did last week after work and then I took the weekend off. She got upset at me because she thought I was texting her and her husband (who are both friends/family to me) unnecessarily. So this weekend I didnt text. I told both of them that I would not be home for the weekend which is of course just curtiousy (sp?) after that I didnt send anything unless they asked me. She of course didnt even reply to it so why, if she complained about me texting unnecessarily, would I text her if she didnt ask/say anything??? (and please tell me if Im wrong on any of this)
Her husband text and asked where I was going Friday and said I was just going to take care of things, Last night he texted me and asked when I would be home so I told him by either 7am or noon today but most likely by 7am to get their son to take him to school (which I transport him everyday) Nothing was said about him not going to school or anything so I figured I didnt need to say anything to her when I picked him up because she was upstairs asleep.
Later in the morning she didnt text me but my supervisor to ask if he was at school (I work in his classroom at school too) She then texted me later on that "I will be taking and getting my son to school everyday starting tom." and then "You didnt have to do it this morning. i was gonna keep him home. Starting tom. ill take care of him going back and forth to school"
He didnt seem sick and I wasnt told anything different so how would I know that today's plan was to change??? I sent back "oook did i do something wrong? I told her husband I'd be home around 7-8am to get T (her son) for school & wasnt told he was going to stay home" Never did hear back from her and she sent her husband to come pick her son up from school, knowing that I was there but she told Joe that she didnt know if I was going to be there to take him home. BOTH of them shouldve known I would be there to take him home because I even told Joe this morning while I was driving home (my mom lives a few hours away from me) that I was on my way. Im sooooooooooooo tired of the BS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im ready to move out but I think if I did I would lose the nursing position I have with taking care of her son and would probably lose both of them as friends or at least strain the relationship big time. I want to run so bad......