Depressed after health crisis

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   Posted 2/28/2012 12:58 AM (GMT -6)   
[img]/community/emoticons/confused.gif[/img] Not quite sure where to start lol, Hello to everyone first off [img]/community/emoticons/smile.gif[/img] Now heres my story 5 years ago my life changed , I went to the emergancy room for pains in my lower right side and blood in my stools , okay did a Ct scan it showed I had UC (ulcerative colitis ) Well we tried antiboitics with no luck so he removed the part of my colon that was effected mind you the next day I sneezed and felt something Pop inside me wihich scared me and I pushed for the nurse , she assured me it was nothing I also told the doctor he said don't worry about it your vitals and everything look good , so I'm sending you home ?? I felt sick knew something wasn't quite right , well in the next few days there was many calls to the doctor about my pain and feeling so sick and not getting any better ?? I said enough is enough on the 9th day and went to the ER at a different hospital which they didn't take kindly too because someone else had did my surgery , as I explained I thought something was really wrong they did a ct scan with the dye and ran into the room 15 minutes later said I was dying and going to operating room asap and that I could die I was Septic and it was even around my heart , Okay so when I woke , I knew it was fixed I was just sore , but I now had a colostomy and my scar had to heal from the inside out ( which scared me first time i seen it ) , I was then told I'd have the bag forever there wasn't enough to reconnect with out adding plumbing ?? okay so during the last 4 years with this I got a bad hernia at my stoma site that ended up wieghing over 22 pounds in the end and I thought I was going to die yet again and this time I was so tired and depressed at how my life had changed That I didn't care maybe dieing was easier , Okay so I have no insurance or any kind of government help I got denied many times anyway My friends and family threw me a bennifit so I could have surgery to remove the hernia that was killing me slowly and during this time my surgeon ran alot of tests , and he said to me on one occasion lets just hook you back up ?? Well I thought I was dreaming I think when he said that and i explained what I believed to be true and he said you have plenty so lets do it and on Jan 4th I got hernia removed and reconnected all at the same time ( god is Good ) , Now that its over I find myself still depressed and stuck , I'm still on paxil as I have been for over two years , I can really get my life back now , so I don't understand why?? I'm soooooooo depressed and I don't like to be around lots of people either and I use to be a people person , Alot has happened and I do have everyday stress's like everyone else but I should be Happy and I'm just not ??? Sometimes I think all I went through messed up my brain lol. [img]/community/emoticons/smhair.gif[/img]

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   Posted 2/28/2012 1:18 AM (GMT -6)   
What you are going through is really quite common among people who have went through a major illness that took them to the brink of death. It is,from what I have been told, a type of PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder). A person becomes "afraid" to really live thinking that if they do then they will end up really sick again and maybe next time not be so lucky.

I went through it myself several years ago after a very nasty bout of pneumonia followed by some really nasty infections that had me hospitalized for almost a month and three weeks of that I was kept about 85% sedated and on a ventilator. After I got home I was really messed up for a time. What ended up helping me get straightened out was taking a low dose anti-anxiety medication and talking about everything with someone who understood and didn't make light of what I was feeling and had experienced.

If you are not seeing a counselor I urge you to. That and the medication may be your ticket back to truly feeling good as quickly as is possible for you.
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   Posted 2/28/2012 9:01 AM (GMT -6)   
I Tabby Catt,

I agree with Jim, I think what you are going through is normal and talking to a counselor or a psychiatrist can help you. Maybe do get on some low dose meds to help your mood.

You have had some major surgeries and changes in your life. It is totally normal to feel depressed right now. But do get help. For life can be wonderful even with what you are going through.

Keep posting and know that we care.

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