I am trying to move on. But, I can be doing anything and a memory will pop up. I haven't been to my dr or therapist since Dec when my eyes suddenly went bad. I was going to try to stay off the medicine. Well for the past week or so the negative thoughts and crying are back. Inside I am screaming, throwing things, breaking things, Outwardly silent tears just roll. I won't let the sobs out. I don't want to cry, but just like the thoughts, it won't stay away.
Thanks for your support.
Health update: sixth cranial nerve palsy - still have double vision, still have tinnitus with hearing loss, had a bout with acute siusitus and acute bronchitus, passed a kidney stone about three weeks ago - soooo painful, hurt my left shoulder in november and can barely lift the arm to hold it out to my side - going to see an ortho since it isn't getting better...just falling apart.