i am still hurting

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stillme
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   Posted 3/2/2012 11:28 PM (GMT -6)   
Why can't I get over this? She is in a relationship, happy and loving life. I am floundering in despair, one illness after the other. They say that you will only have put on you what you can bear. Well, maybe I look like I'm bearing this. I'm not. I'm going through the motions but I am nothing on the inside.

I miss chatting with you all. So much healthwise going on. Haven't been taking any medicine but I will call psych dr tomorrow. I need something. Just can't do it. I'm back to square 1. Again. Sorry guys.

getting by
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   Posted 3/3/2012 12:00 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Stillme,

I am sorry that you feel bad that she is moving on without you. But she might not be as happy as she appears,. But you can't worry about that anymore, you must get on with your life and take care of you, It takes time and practice to get on with things, I am glad that you are seeing your psych doc tomorrow. Tell them everything that is going on.
Get the help that you need. I hope that you feel better soon.

Take care, keep posting.

Hugs, Karen
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theHTreturns...
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   Posted 3/3/2012 4:04 AM (GMT -6)   
here for you my friend. good move in seeing the doctor.

with much healing compassion to you.

~jamie
EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE PERSONALITY DISORDER,

RAPID CYCLING BI-POLAR DISORDER

REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.

bayoub2
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   Posted 3/3/2012 7:00 AM (GMT -6)   
Poor stillme...I am so sory that you are feeling so badly...I think it is contagious this year-lol. You are in good company.

Yes, please call your doc asap. I am having trouble too and haven't seen doc or therapist in months and I can tell. I know you will feel better about yourselfonce you start talking and taking meds again.

One day at a time. You are grieving, so let yourself cry...but life goes on and we cannot linger too long in that place

Take care..post when you can..let us know

Maggie
"We never realize how strong we are, until being strong is the only thing left"
Major Depressive Disorder, ptsd, fibromyalgia, chronic pain, l3/4, L4/5 gone, bursitis arthritis sciatica

seroquel, hydrocodone clonazepam norvasc multi vitamin and magnesium

stillme
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   Posted 3/3/2012 8:38 AM (GMT -6)   
I am trying to move on. But, I can be doing anything and a memory will pop up. I haven't been to my dr or therapist since Dec when my eyes suddenly went bad. I was going to try to stay off the medicine. Well for the past week or so the negative thoughts and crying are back. Inside I am screaming, throwing things, breaking things, Outwardly silent tears just roll. I won't let the sobs out. I don't want to cry, but just like the thoughts, it won't stay away.

Thanks for your support.

Health update: sixth cranial nerve palsy - still have double vision, still have tinnitus with hearing loss, had a bout with acute siusitus and acute bronchitus, passed a kidney stone about three weeks ago - soooo painful, hurt my left shoulder in november and can barely lift the arm to hold it out to my side - going to see an ortho since it isn't getting better...just falling apart.

getting by
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   Posted 3/3/2012 9:21 AM (GMT -6)   
If you are having pain in your shoulders, I am wondering if it is fibromyalgia. That is where mine started. Just a thought. Unless you did something to your shoulder.

Keep haning in there. You will get better. If you feel the need to cry, do so , it is cleansing.

Keep posting and let us know how you are doing.

Hugs, Karen
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bayoub2
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   Posted 3/3/2012 10:16 AM (GMT -6)   
Boy, you HAVE had a bad time of it...it is hard to be positive when you are hurting like that. I remember now that you were having vision probs. I completely understand fear of more meds, but hope springs eternal. I keep hoping that I will find the right combo-I hope you do too!!

Hang in there and keep posting and let it out...that is why we are here stillme

Take care
Maggie
"We never realize how strong we are, until being strong is the only thing left"
Major Depressive Disorder, ptsd, fibromyalgia, chronic pain, l3/4, L4/5 gone, bursitis arthritis sciatica

seroquel, hydrocodone clonazepam norvasc multi vitamin and magnesium
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