i've just joined, but i thought i would let you know i read your post and empathize.
do you have an outlet, like writing/painting/composing or through excercise that might assist with venting some of your feelings? i used to write alot of poetry/prose and compose, when i was single and younger (lol). i also used to lift weights, swim and run. these things all seemed to keep in a "reasonable" place, but then i had no family and could keep whatever hours i wanted. i also discovered that i was much happier living on a farm, with few neighbours around.
all the best
hoping you find peace
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