Hi Dark Valley,
Welcome to the HW depression forum. You have come to a good place where you will get a lot of suppport.
Are you seeing a counselor by any chance? I would highly recommend it with the way that you are feeling. It is hard putting on a mask and acting okay. But I am sure it helps you be supportive with your boyfriend. You just have to be supportive with yourself now. Keep trying. Talk to somebody. It is good to go to counseling, it could save you from having to take meds.
Best wishes to you.
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies