Hi, don't know why, but I was drawn to your post. Can I ask you how old you are ? I am 51, but hey, depression doesn't know age limits. You are hurting beyond what is possible for a human being.
Please keep in contact with me. I know what it is like to suffer with depression.
I don't know what has brought you to this point in your life, but I want you to know that you are not alone. I too am going through the same hell as you.
Please know that, even though you don't know me, I want to be your friend.
Hang on in there. Please stay in touch via this website.